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Somatophylakes
22 December 2005 @ 01:44 pm

This child was made to be broken
This man was born only to die.
Mother Mary held him for the first time and began
To say goodbye.

Maybe I’m mistaken but I think it’s true
Here’s only destination that we’ll ever come to
Somebody, please tell me, help me realize
Why every man who lives here always dies
And can you please tell me now,
What’s in that God-forsaken name
Of Jesus Christ the messenger.
Wouldn’t you have done the same?

Cry once for Jesus
His mother’s tears were shed and gone
Somebody speak for Mary
And start listening, listening.
Weep now for Jesus
Pack your bags for the Holy Land
And He’ll speak to you, too
Listen, he’s telling you, telling you.

Mother, turn your head now, mother, don’t you cry
Every child that lives here’s going to die
When every day another man dies another man, you find
Dying for a man alone is more than dying for mankind.
And if I could have saved you
I would have taken up your cross
And you would leave with Mother Mary
Live the life you might have lost

Cry once for Jesus
His mother’s tears were shed and gone
Somebody speak for Mary
And start listening, listening.
Weep now for Jesus
Pack your bags for the Holy Land
And He’ll speak to you, too
Listen, he’s telling you, telling you.
 
This child was made to be broken
This man was made only to die.
Mother Mary held him for the first time and began
To say goodbye.

 
 
Somatophylakes
10 December 2005 @ 03:14 pm

Today, I’m coming, I’ll come today

I can see you listening
Pressing your profile to the stereo
I know you’re out there
You’re somewhere all alone, you’re on your own
You’re not at home and I can taste you.
What if I said I was talking to you?
Would you shake your head and softly smile?
What if I’m on your doorstep saying,
“Hello, my friend, let me in, it’s been a while.”

 Here is the catch
You’re a million miles away from me
And you can hear what I am saying
This is the catch
The sounds have found you and I have reached you
And you can’t say it wasn’t meant to be
When you’re hearing me

Today, I’m coming, I’ll come today

Tell me you’ll hear it
I’ll send a warning but in the morning I’ll be gone.
And from my lips comes the last of me that I had kept
Hoping I could find a use for it, but I found none.
You asked for the catch, and here’s what you get
Need your fix, ask me when I’ll be home
I wish I were on your doorstep saying
“I wish I’d known.”

Here is the catch
You’re a million miles away from me
And you can hear what I am saying
This is the catch
The sounds have found you and I have reached you
And you can’t say it wasn’t meant to be
You’re hearing me

Today, I’m coming, I’ll come today
I’ll come today
I’ll come today

 
 
Somatophylakes
28 November 2005 @ 11:09 pm

How Many Miles to Babylon
By Agápë

The road we walked had a distant end
Past the desert sun
There came a day you didn't need me
I shut my eyes, I let you lead me
Knowing what we'd done
I watched you sleep, I held you fast
You reached up to the sky
I kissed your lips as morning came
But I’ll leave you as you call my name and cry.

How many more miles to Babylon?
Where the love Achilles lies dead
How many more miles to Babylon?
I taste her hate in the wine
And the summer will lay down her head.

The road lay ahead and we travelled far
And hand in hand we went
In the jungles past the winter snow
In the land of rain, I had to know
What you meant
I’m standing tall but the waters rise
I’m in over my head
In safety’s arms I’m becoming calm
As I leave the world that rests in your palm
But God knows I've bled
 

How many more miles to Babylon?
Where the love Achilles lies dead
How many more miles to Babylon?
I taste her hate in the wine
And the summer will lay down her head.

 
 
Somatophylakes
28 November 2005 @ 10:38 am
I am so addicted to this
The pain, the blame, the high, the game
And I’ll gamble everything before I go
I am so obsessed with you now
Your eyes, your thighs, your smile, your lies
And I thought that you should know that
I’m so unstable all the time now
I shake and I break, but I’m strong and I make
I make it to tomorrow
And I’ll start all over again.

There’s something in my veins
And I feel it in my blood.
You are the chemical within me
Like a living, breathing drug

I need this like I need air
This is the need, the deed, and I’ll scream, and I’ll bleed
I’ll lose it all before I’m done
I’m so in love with numbness
I’m cold, but I’m sold, and nobody told
Me that it could feel so good to die
I am such a junkie for this
I’ve gone blind, but I find, that going out of my mind
Is better than I thought it would be
And I’ll start over again, and again and -

There’s something in my veins
And I feel it in my blood.
You are the chemical within me
Like a living, breathing drug

I hope the poison infects me
Take the pill, get your fill, then go in for kill
Did I ever tell you? Do you know?
I love the sting of the needle
It’s too late to go straight and I’m starting to hate
The fix that won’t let me go
I have to start all over again

You are in my veins
I feel you in my blood
I’m addicted to this high
I feel it in my blood.
 
 
Somatophylakes
27 November 2005 @ 08:20 pm
Piece by piece it comes together
Monumental, beautiful
Get the picture, see the meaning
This is what you’ve waited for
See the face up in the sky
It smiles so calmly down on you
Soon our eyes will close forever
Soon we’ll all be seeing blue
There is a fire in the distance
Look how it’s falling from the clouds above
It is meeting no resistance
Hear how the sirens scream aloud
And the watchman wakes and tells the sleepers
Before they die, what should they do?
Heed the warnings, hide the children
Soon they will be seeing blue
The eyes of God are peering down
He’s helpless, he cannot find you
He never guessed he’d lose his grip like this
But he’s sorry he can’t save you
He sees the face that’s smiling calmly
Frantically, we’re preparing to
Stand and watch the cities fall down
One quick pain, then I’m seeing blue
Hear the sirens growing softer
The last defence is failing fast
It’s winding down and become a matter
Of who will be left living last
Cross your heart and say goodbye
Soon I will be seeing you
Stand up tall and hope to die
Fall into the blue, give into the blue
It’s over now, it’s quiet and I
Can see into the blue.

 
 
Somatophylakes
27 November 2005 @ 12:25 pm

Sometimes there is a feeling
Miles away from what is true
Like standing in the open space
With no one in the sky to catch you
Did you ever feel like the Earth might fail
And nothing would hold us down?
Any second it will happen and the world will,
The world will leave the ground 

Come all ye faithful, now fall down and pray
Because we’re falling away
Yes, we’re falling away 

And if the summer sun should shine too bright and we find ourselves in ecstasy
Nothing would keep you from her light, it is science beyond our docimacy
So we float away and everything’s ended. We’ve killed off all isocracy.
Now ask yourself what we have defended but our own great genetic fallacy.
And if the world could end and start again and the West fell from cosmocracy
Would the new ones find their Christ and then, would they reinstate democracy?
What if children carried sacred bombs used only for diplomacy?
And had numbers scarred into their palms and were denied their right to privacy?

This will make the sane ones paranoid
We’re falling out, away into the void
And in the fear we pay for all our hypocrisy
And yes, my friend, this is the great conspiracy.

Come all ye faithful, now fall down and pray
Because we’re falling away
Yes, we’re falling away

Without an anchor, without weight,
Our galaxy has shifted
No holding on now, we’ll all be gone now,
And everything has drifted miles away
But it’s okay, we have what matters most of all
And order is preserved.
And we are the victims, and nobody says that
We got what we deserved.

Come all ye faithful, now fall down and pray
Because we’re falling away
Yes, we’re falling away

This will make the sane ones paranoid
We’re falling out, away into the void
And in the fear we pay for all our hypocrisy
And yes, my friend, this is the great conspiracy.

 
 
Somatophylakes
25 November 2005 @ 01:32 pm

The Flavour of You
By Agápë


If you look a little closer now I promise that you’ll find
That all the things I ever did I did with you in mind.
 

And I can’t stand it, I hate it, I’m sick with your taste and
The world seemed to know I couldn’t live for long like this
Bitter wine and suspicion are the flavours of your kiss.
 

All that you’ve ever said to me has made me who I am
Now I hope I’ve come out perfectly
Here I stand before you
Why have I let you break me down
Time after time
So you can make me up to be the one you always hoped you’d find.
I have never been so good at simply staying calm
When one woman said she loved me
I always thought I would be wrong to stray
To leave a moment, breathe a moment
And you would never guess
That I could never hurt you and say I loved you any less.
 

And I can’t stand it, I hate it, I’m sick with your taste and
I was so cold and fading fast, and you were always there
Hold me tight, keep me right, you’re keeping out the air
And I can’t think.
I don’t need you right beside me to hide me
From what you still fear.
Now I know I must have wanted you to hurt me just like this.
And now wine and suspicion are the flavour of you kiss
 

And I can’t stand it, I hate it, I’m sick with your taste and
The world seemed to know I couldn’t live for long like this
Bitter wine and suspicion are the flavours of your kiss.
 

Am I lying for the better, am I still making this mistake
While you are taking all I ever loved away
We’re just beginning to break through to one another
And I have to turn away, and I’ll say
Now I’m stronger so much older, none the wiser, growing colder
But I won’t miss the fire you used to burn me
Or all the words you said to turn me into this thing that I am
I hope I fit into your plan, and here I stand.
 

And I can’t stand it, I hate it, I’m sick with your taste and
The world seemed to know I couldn’t live for long like this
Bitter wine and suspicion are the flavours of your kiss.

 
 
Somatophylakes
22 November 2005 @ 10:58 pm

The Angel’s Changed
By Agápë
 

I told you there was nothing you could do to save me
In the end, all these years were going to change me
And I said nothing
I was so afraid that you’d see I’d started over once again
The endless cycle, spiral downwards into our sins
And I gave in.
Now that everything has changed
I couldn’t stay the same
I’m not the one who fell in love with you.
And you’ve changed, too.
 

The angel’s changed
I don’t recognize her face
Keep me the same
I’ll be your fall from grace
I’m starting to despise
These small, essential lies
You’ve lost your wings and all the things
You angels need to fly.
But I’ll say nothing.
 

So trust me just this once when I say I cannot go on
But I say nothing
I’m frozen here, inside your atmosphere and you
You’re holding me too tightly, always taking and I smile
It’s like every other day I’ll have to live
I’ll have nothing left to give.
When we first began I knew you, I could see everything
Now we say nothing.
When did we become like strangers never asking for a name
I have to change, I have to change
And I’ll say
 

The angel’s changed
I don’t recognize her face
Keep me the same
I’ll be your fall from grace
I’m starting to despise
These small, essential lies
You’ve lost your wings and all the things
You angels need to fly.
But I’ll say nothing.

 
 
Somatophylakes
22 November 2005 @ 10:51 pm

Never Be Enough
By Agápë
 

Had my head in the clouds
For just a little too long
The boys had my back
And then everything went wrong
My shoes turned to lead
And I fell to the ground
I've been screaming ever since
But I’ve never made a sound.
This threadbare cloth,
I'm looking through
I hear you tears
They’re very slowly drowning you
I'm chained to the wall
Six feet from my death
So save me from starving
Just send me a breath.
I'm going insane
And you won't let me out
Or let death come without doubt.
 

My life has no final chapter
Now death, never knowing what comes after
It is over.
No story worth telling
To those who know too well
That life without a memory
Is a life lived in hell
I'd give it all to come back
Since even love is rough
We know too much of a good thing
Will never be enough
 

I'm repeating the phrase,
I think I've heard it before
When the words of a prophet
Come from the mouth of a whore
The divine has been tainted
By all that you've lost
We had a precious short while,
And at such a high cost
So wake up my lover,
And let him know it's all a dream
I'll be home in just an hour,
I'm not as dead as I seem.
I'm clinging to memories,
Like the sheets to your skin
Hoping who you are now
Learned from who was then.
 

My life has no final chapter
Now death, never knowing what comes after
It is over.
No story worth telling
To those who know too well
That life without a memory
Is a life lived in hell
I'd give it all to come back
Since even love is rough
We know too much of a good thing
Will never be enough


© 2004 Conner J.A. Hoskins

 
 
Somatophylakes
20 November 2005 @ 08:49 pm

I’m waiting for the sign for the years to disappear
We’ve got the time, all of the time, now that it’s all become so crystal clear
A hundred years were wasted on the earth and on the sea
When all the world is yours, how could you still want me?
If I could travel into space, I’d find the universe’s end
And I’d reach out but you’d never hear the signal that I’d send
My eyes are open, open wide. It ended years ago.
They stars, they fell, with slowest light and we were the last to know.

 Let me cry out!
Let me shout it to the sky
I’ll scream aloud!
They’ll hear me way up high
I’m contacting the universe
Please pick up when I call
I want to know if there’s a place
Where my troubles might look small

 My ears will ring, my head will clear. You’ll say into the phone
“Come back to earth, I’ll make you safe, I’ll make you feel at home.”
In the stars the world was nothing. No one asked and no one knew
Who claimed the land and won the sea, who might own that speck of blue.
I’m heading out to find the end, in a spaceship I can’t steer.
What are they saying, down on Earth? Turn up the volume, let me hear.
My eyes are open, open wide. It ended years ago.
They stars, they fell, with slowest light and we were the last to know.

Let me cry out!
They’ll hear me way up high
I’ll scream aloud!
Let me shout it to the sky
I’m contacting the universe
Please pick up when I call
I want to know if there’s a place
Where my troubles might look small.

 I’ve heard that far beyond the stars I’ll feel like God is near
You’re flying fast, but you won’t catch me, I’ll leave you on your tiny sphere.
Did you think love could still exist in incomplete triality?
My love for you, you might have missed, was blasted from reality.
Why suffer in the stillness? Why not scream it from the radio?
Win your fame and sell your pain until you’re bleeding from the stereo.
My eyes are open, open wide. It ended years ago.
They stars, they fell, with slowest light and we were the last to know.
 
Let me cry out!
They’ll hear me way up high
I’ll scream aloud!
Let me shout it to the sky
I’m contacting the universe
Please pick up when I call
I want to know if there’s a place
Where my troubles might look small.

My eyes are open, open wide. It ended years ago.
They stars, they fell, with slowest light and we were the last to know.
Why suffer in the stillness? Why not scream it from the radio?
Win your fame and change your name until you’re bleeding from the stereo.

 
 
Somatophylakes
20 November 2005 @ 12:43 pm
I’ll breathe you in and out and in
And out into the world
Without me
Where you’re within, without, and again
Without a friend; he’s dead.
He always will be
When world’s love is not enough
I’ll sing you to sleep and cry
Mother’s touch is all he needs
And he will never die

Now that you know it true
He’s nothing without you
Soon, you’re going to see
You’re nothing without me

I’ll breathe you in; I’ll be your skin
I’ll commit your sins,
And I’ll forgive you.
You’ll breathe him in and cast him out again
He’ll slip away
But I’ll still hold you
When all your friends have turned away
Come home, come home to heal
And we’ll imagine all the dreams and days
The world made seem so real

Now that you know it true
He’s nothing without you
Soon, you’re going to see
You’re nothing without me

I’ll ease you’re pain, I’ll go insane
For the world that you’d gain
And leave me.
And those who turn their backs will learn
The facts and see how fast
You’ll need me.
Fall down and cry aloud
I’ve seen the omen in the sky
If the boy had felt his mother’s touch
The King would never die

Now that you know it true
He’s nothing without you
Soon, you’re going to see
You’re nothing without me
 
 
Somatophylakes
17 November 2005 @ 11:03 am
"Alexander," a voice hailed from outside the King's modest tent. Alexander had only just arrived there himself, after visiting the tents erected for those who had been wounded in battle, encouraging the living and blessing those who would soon die. It drained him far more than the fighting. He had not rested since the battle had been won, and yet the rest of his night would be his own to regain his strength. Tomorrow would be spent reviewing his generals reports and organising the impending march to Babylon, a task which he thought he might hand to Hephaestion.

Outside, Hephaestion stood, having only just extricated himself from the clutched of his physician. He had always hated being tended to after battles, for often it would keep him from knowing Alexander's condition for hours. He would have bypassed Phillip, his doctor, entirely, if his arm had not been so in need of attention. He hadn't yet become capable of donning a chiton, for he was unable to lift his arm; and so he simply wore his usual armour and sandals below his waist, around which hung the tattered shred of the chiton which the physician had cut away. Because of this half-dressed state, he was eagre to enter Alexander's tent; the women of Darius' immediate following were all being held respectfully in their camp, and were left free to wander. Shy young man that he was, Hephaestion was mortally embarrassed when a few pairs of their sultry eyes fell upon him.

Recognising Hephaestion's voice, Alexander had opened the tent flap in moments and gathered his sore friend into his arms, careful of both their scrapes and bruises. "I am glad to see you Hephaestion. I looked for you amongst the wounded but I never found you. There were too many to search through." He surveyed Hephaestion's condition and cast a skeptical eye on the physician's work as he drew Hephaestion inside and secured the tent flap behind them.He caught angry patches of redness, which had barely escaped the edges of the bandages covering Hephaestion's arm and thigh.

"I was there," said Hephaestion. "I saw you, but I thought it best not to interrupt your work." Hephaestion smiled sadly, then his brow creased with concern. "Did Phillip ever see to your leg? He said he must, and then left for a time."

"Yes, he did. He treated it well," Alexander answered, still fixing Hephaestion with a critical gaze. He lifted the edge of the bandage which covered his friend's arm. "These were cauterised?"

Hephaestion nodded. "and sutured, afterward," he laughed, in jocular self-pity.

"Laughter, Phae? You bear that bravely. I bit nearly though the tip of my tongue when he laid brand to my leg."

Now laughing in genuine humour, Hephaestion stuck out his own somewhat injured tongue. Alexander patted his shoulder, and let his hand drift from Hephaestion's wounded arm to the bare chest it lead to, where he let it rest. "You must be tired, he sighed sympathetically, but Hephaestion shook his head.

"I slept while I waited for the physician to come."

"Oh, that's well, then," Alexander grinned. "I need your company tonight. Here," he indicated he indicated the copper pot hanging over the fire. "I've heated some water for a bath." He went to the fire to remove the large pot, but
 
 
Somatophylakes
16 November 2005 @ 12:02 am
Now there's change on the wind
Let me blow you away
We won't run from the end
We must begin another day

And the King will sleep alone
While he's speaking to his fears
We are so young, I should have known,
I'd live my life in twenty years.
I watched the smile on your face
When the World unlocked her door
We've let the Titans set the pace
Forgot what we left home for.
And the world is falling down.
He must catch it in his hand,
It'll bring him too his knees,
So like Achilles final stand.
And on the field the drums will sing
To the Gods of dying men
I know who that shield will bring,
And he'll never die again.

Now there's change on the wind
So let me blow you away
We won't run from the end
We must begin another day

And love me last of all
As the sickness fades away
We all die an hour too soon
Our breath is gone before we pray.
And love me last of all
And I swear I'll play my part.
Shall we always reach and fall?
Or do we simply fall apart?

You're the one I need to save
So I'll lend a helping hand
Come, my King, and see the grave
Of the Sacred Theban Band.
She's turned my body into stone
And the wine will kill you fast
If your mother's on the throne
How long can the world last?
If I'm gone by sunrise
Will you follow me to hell?
You cannot blind the God's eyes
But if I stumbled, would you tell?
And the dancer's a jungle child
To tempt the Great King's thirst
And his legs will make you wild,
But Patroklus loved you first.

Now there's change on the wind
Let me blow you away
We won't run from the end
We must begin another day

And love me last of all
As the sickness fades away
We all die an hour too soon
Our breath is gone before we pray.
And love me last of all
And I swear I'll play my part.
Shall we always reach and fall?
Or do we simply fall apart?

Come and dance with me and cry
At the tombs of childhood games
The immortals all shall die
And we shall keep their names.
And we've only just begun
On the night before your war
I'll be the stars, you'll be the sun
Of a young man's myth and lore.
And the dancer's a jungle child
To tempt the Great King's thirst
And his legs will make you wild,
But Patroklus loved you first.
Love me last of all
And I'll keep you in my heart
We'll always reach and fall,
And then we'll simply fall apart.

Now there's change on the wind
Let me blow you away
We won't run from the end
We must begin another day.

And love me last of all
As the sickness fades away
We all die an hour too soon
Our breath is gone before we pray.
And love me last of all
And I swear I'll play my part.
We will always reach and fall.
And then we simply fall apart.
 
 
Somatophylakes
14 November 2005 @ 11:43 am

The perfection of summer is passing.

Autumn looms before Ecbatana, and I shiver.

There is death on the wind.

The laughter converged with the thrum of wings

In the great hall, alight with celebration.

Fever overtook me.

The world spun upon an undetermined axis, and then stilled.

For a week it heaved beneath me,

And I lay, floating just above the coverlet

Every scrap of food a deadly poison,

Every sip of wine a heartbeat lost,

Every kiss he stole from me a touch of fire.

I trembled in the last moments.

In the last secondI cried out for him, my King,

But none listened.

They went for the doctor, they called through the streets,

But they never heard me.

My breath stilled.

The world stilled.

And yet my eyes still perceived him, my King,

Arriving too late to burn his Patroklus with one last embrace.

Then let come the Homeric fire.

 
 
Somatophylakes
14 November 2005 @ 01:04 am
The watch-fires were burning low in Alexander’s camp. Men were beginning to wander toward their respective tents, eyelids weighted by India’s unmixed wine. The veterans, who seemed not to need so much rest as the younger soldiers, sat up, gathered about the fires, conversing about meaningless events of years passed. Hephaestion and I might have found places with them, I realised, for we had served as long as they in Alexander’s army; and by Zeus, Hephaestion had served him longer than any us, though, of all the Companions, Hephaestion had met him last. As it was, we stayed in our own camp, recognized by all as the unseasoned generals: Hephaestion, Perdiccas, Peukestas, Nearchus, Kassandros, and I, Ptolomy, a historian and least seasoned of us all. As I looked around that night, it became unusually evident that certain empty seats existed. I nearly missed Philotas’s condescending remarks at my side. Parmenion, his father, no longer sat across the camp, within easy reach, should he hear of his son causing trouble, and old Black Kleitos no longer strode between every claque, spreading his harsh humours amongst the men. None of these men had fallen in battle, though, I thought. We had murdered them, plain and true. I myself had condoned the torture of poor Philotas, and Hephaestion had participated in it directly, and both our votes had decided his fate. We had seen him executed. Kleitos, acting out of duty to Alexander, had murdered Parmenion, and Alexander, only a short while later, had murdered Kleitos. I laughed to myself, grimly, and shook my head to clear it, even as I clouded it with another sip of dark wine.

“Why do you smile?”

I looked up from my drink to see who had spoken. Hephaestion’s eyes had not left me, and I felt myself studied by them. Words seemed to escape my tongue for a moment; a feeling to which I am unaccustomed. I have always been well-spoken and articulate, but I did not know how to explain my thoughts then. I cast my eyes about me, as if searching for something to remind my lips of speech, but in the end, I was forced to simply raise my cup to my mouth once again and mutter only a broken word, “Irony...”

Hephaestion nodded, understanding my thoughts from that one word, and clasped my shoulder sympathetically, saying nothing more. Perhaps those sea-hued eyes had seen though me, and he had read my heart, as he read Alexander’s. I shivered. In that moment, I was quite sure that the young general at my side was far more intelligent that he ever let any of us know. Now, I cannot say if it was best that our Hephaestion was so secretive, for his silence led us to call him dim-witted and incapable; in power only because of Alexander’s dotage on him. If he’d revealed his sharp mind, I have no doubt that we would have called him cunning and manipulative, and accused him of using Alexander’s love to steal power that was rightly our own. How ironic this world is.

I thought to continue our conversation. It was rare that I spoke at length with any but the King. The Companions, though all friends amongst themselves, were truly bound only by the love each of us felt for Alexander, and while such loves had united us in battle many a time, when our limbs became idle our hearts grew jealous. Hephaestion seemed to me the best with whom to become acquainted, for if he was not the most virtuous of the Companions (and he might have been), he would, at least, be the most interesting.

Hephaestion, however, had become distracted. He was gazing intently at the group of our elder veterans, his eyes narrowed questioningly. Some of those nearer to us fell silent, seeing his expression, and realising that he was trying to discern a part of another conversation. We all listened with him. In a moment, I recognised the gruff tones of Eumenes, though his voice was low and he kept his head down. He pulled another soldier close.

“I’ve known that King since he was a child!” Eumenes whispered harshly. “He let his mother rule him then, and he lets Hephaestion rule him now! That boy can’t lead a cavalry. I tell you, we don’t owe that boy the respect we show him! Has he ever saved any of our lives?” For a moment, it seemed as if one of the men beside Eumenes would speak, but Eumenes immediately added, “He’s just another whore our King favours, though not half so pretty as that Persian pleasure that’s clung to our heels.”

I perceived a different man then, and he contrasted sharply with Eumenes, whom I had fought alongside at so many battles. I was disgusted with him. I was disgusted with those who gathered around him. We all, Alexander and Hephaestion included, had endured on the Indian campaign, and what disgusted me most was what these small, necessary hardships of warfare could do to turn our hearts against the ones to whom we would claim allegiance when times were good.

We all looked to Hephaestion, our hearts racing in anticipation of the oncoming quarrel. It was true that there was more than one faction within Alexander’s great army, but that was to be expected. However, we rarely saw a true fight erupt on the King’s behalf. Hephaestion made me proud, though. I saw plainly the rage in his eyes as he looked at Eumenes’ back, hunched as he lied to his friend’s and soiled good names, and I saw his jaw clench and his fists tremble, and then I saw him drown his anger. He cast his eyes down and then shut them, and with one breath, relaxed every tensed muscle in his body, dismissing Eumenes’ thoughtless. I didn’t know if any but I had seen this personal struggle, but I surely admired Hephaestion for it. He looked to me, and there was a wry smile on his lips.

“That’ll be the wine talking for him. I shouldn’t be surprised to hear such things anymore,” he said quietly, and I felt as if, by talking to me in his present hurt condition, he was revealing his vulnerability to me. “Talk in camps has never been civil, anyway. I should expect no less.”

Though his words spoke of calm forgiveness, there was a certain pain in his voice, and I knew well the source of it. Hephaestion had shifted uncomfortably with every mention of Alexander’s love for him for many months now, and I could see why. Years ago, I had seen him creep through the camp nearly every night, to go secretly to Alexander’s tent. He could have walked there in the light of day, for all the men cared. There wasn’t a soldier among us who hadn’t heard tell of Alexander’s love for beautiful, strong Hephaestion, and yet, Hephaestion, I think, had been the one to always insist on discretion. This had not happened of late, though. We had begun to call the eunuch Bagoas his lover, and Roxanne was his wife. Hephaestion, I decided, had spent most every night of our trek through India alone. His feelings for Alexander were injured, I think, and our gossip was salt in the wound.

“I must go to rest, Ptolemy. The wine’s going to my head, as well,” he smiled vaguely and rose, setting his cup down. It was full, and had not touched his lips that night. Suddenly, Eumenes’ voice rose above the others, oblivious to Hephaestion’s nearness.

“Hephaestion’s proof of it! A king who gives such a boy a commanding position must be daft. We might have fared better if Philotas and Parmenion had had their way with Alexander...”

We had all heard it, and every man seemed to fall silent as Hephaestion halted. Our eyes all rested on him. Momentarily, I thought that, once again, his virtue would win over and he would hang his head, ready to proceed quietly back to his tent. Then, I realised that Eumenes had brought Hephaestion’s anger into knew territory. It was no longer his worth Eumenes attacked, but Alexander’s.

“Keep your tongue civil, General,” Hephaestion said, barely loud enough to be heard by our questing ears. “This army needs no more of it’s best to fall into treason.”

“I’ll hear no such talk from you, boy,” said Eumenes, rising suddenly. “Do you call Kleitos a traitor? What of Philotas? Did you never consider his innocence?”

Hephaestion whipped around to face Eumenes, long hair flying. I thought, seeing the deadly anger upon his face, that he would surely roar at Eumenes and we would finally see Hephaestion’s well-guarded temper, but he remained quiet. “You heard Philotas’s confession yourself, and you cannot deny that, General.”

Eumenes laughed, and I could sense the wine in his veins as it made him fey. “Aye, I did! I heard the very words you and your friends drew from him with your blades!”

Then Krateros and Coenus rose, as well, bristling at his rude reference to them. Eumenes was swiftly making enemies, and I was swiftly joining them, though I had not the courage to stand and proclaim it, then. This last remark had cut Hephaestion deeply.

“Never again speak to me of Philotas, Eumenes. Do not be so ignorant as to think that I have not lost nights of sleep for pity for him!” Eumenes recoiled under Hephaestion’s glare. “And never shall I hear another word from your lips threaten Alexander’s life, or by Zeus, Eumenes, I’ll kill you myself.” This said, Hephaestion resumed his progress toward his tent, and I felt as if he had surely bested Eumenes in this contest, and Eumenes should have accepted his defeat.

Eumenes took a few staggering steps forward. He drank once more from his cup, then cast it away and drew his blade. “Come then, whore!” he laughed. You are also Alexander, are you not? Then come! Murder me, Alexander, like you murdered Kleitos!”

threw himself at Eumenes with a cry of what must have been his whole soul, and drew his own sword. I may have been the only one to see that Hephaestion had thrown the thing away in his rage, and left it to balance, quivering in the heavy loam, as if the part of him that remained sane sought to keep the rest of him from doing anything regrettable. Men were up in an instant, holding Hephaestion and Eumenes at bay. Eumenes was waving his blade unsteadily and shouting curses, but Hephaestion seemed driven to biting. He fought those who restrained him like the bagheera of those jungles, teeth bared and eyes like ice set aflame.

Then, I turned, without knowing why, and saw Alexander rush from his tent, disturbed by the commotion. I wanted suddenly to cry out to Hephaestion, and warn him to not show Alexander this broken side of himself, though there was never an opportunity to do such a thing. We fell silent as he approached, and even Hephaestion quieted, gaining control of himself. The men released him, and he stood, panting, his face streaked with tears, and his gaze still burning toward Eumenes, who had backed away, trying to make himself small within the crowd.

The men stood aside for the King, and soon, we surrounded him, and the silent Hephaestion, who had shut his eyes, trying to regain his breath and composure. Alexander looked from Hephaestion’s face to Hephaestion’s blade, which trembled still. I knew then that Alexander did not perceive the situation as it had been, though I couldn’t bring myself to explain at that minute.

“I have dealt leniently when my foot-soldiers brawled,” Alexander said. His words were clearly directed toward Hephaestion, but I was stunned to hear him announce them to us all as he did. “But I expect better from those who I name generals! Hephaestion, explain this immediately.”

I watched as Eumenes paled, anticipating that the blame would be given to him.

“My, King, I quarrelled with Eumenes.”

And he said no more. I lost my breath. How could he not break under such unfair shame, and then lay no blame upon Eumenes? Alexander looked stunned, as well, and spoke at length.

“I am sickened by this!” he shouted. Hephaestion, I have trusted you for years, and you repay me with this? An attack upon one of my generals is an attack upon me, and don’t doubt that you’ll be flayed for it yet this night. General Eumenes!”

Tentatively, Eumenes stepped out of the crowd, now unarmed and shamefaced. Alexander looked from Hephaestion to the older man, and I expected that some worse retribution was in store for Eumenes.

“I want you to ask his forgiveness, Hephaestion.”

I felt as if I’d be sick. I thought I would shout aloud, and tell Hephaestion to walk away, and not bear such humiliation, but he had resigned. “I should not have quarrelled so with you, Eumenes. Forgive me.” He looked into the other man’s eyes when he said it. His words sounded sincere, but Eumenes trembled as if he had seen his own death.

“And, Eumenes, do the same,” said Alexander. Eumenes muttered an apology that was less than heartfelt, and his gaze never once met Hephaestion’s. Alexander spoke again to the older general. “Come to my tent when I send for you, and tell me what all of this was about.” He turned to the other, whose jaw was set against what I could only guess was a flood of tears to rival India’s rains. “Go with my guard, General Hephaestion. I do not let transgressions such as this go unpunished.”

As the guards took Hephaestion by the arms, leading him away to be flayed, I thought that Hephaestion might speak. I hoped he would speak, in fact, on his own behalf. Alexander saw this, as well, but silenced the man. “Did you think I would treat you differently?”

I think that every one of us heard our young general’s heart shatter. Those words were a deep wound, to all of us. We were all the friends he’d loved since boyhood. Some of us had helped to raise him. Of course, we had all expected that he would treat us differently. I saw no reason to single out Hephaestion. I think I hated Alexander then, more than I hated Eumenes, and I was especially angry at Hephaestion for his nobility, as he shrugged off the guards and walked, unaided, toward the post which was being raised to bear him.

No man lingered by the fires after that. Only the sentries remained to hear what Alexander might have spoken to Eumenes, and to hear the lash’s song. I listened, as well, hoping to hear some justice done upon Eumenes, but I heard nothing but incoherent snatches of conversation. I did not realise at first why the relative silence struck me so, but it was soon apparent. Hephaestion never once uttered a sound.
 
 
Somatophylakes
07 November 2005 @ 01:52 am

“You never answered me, Hephaestion. Do you wish to stay with me tonight?” Alexander’s voice was quiet, his golden eyes cast out toward the silhouetted ziggurat crowning Babylon. “I’ll not force you to stay if -” 

“Don’t be such a fool, Alexander,” came the answer, sweetened with a laugh. Hephaestion had caught the faint difference in Alexander’s tone, as it changed from one of proud declaration to soft intimacy, and he smiled. He had been hoping to hear those words since his embrace with Alexander had ended a moment before, fearing Alex had forgotten the request he’d made before they’re conversation had begun. “I wish for nothing more in the world,” he breathed. “I wouldn’t suffer myself to leave you.” He stroked a hand through Alexander’s curls.

“Thank you,” Alex whispered. “You always seem to know when I need you, Hephaestion. You always have, and I thank Zeus for it.” 

The hand untangled carefully from Alexander’s hair and came to rest upon his neck, rubbing softly. Hephaestion thought he heard his friend purr at this, leaning into his touch. “What you need, Alexander, is my need to give you. Since the day I met you I’ve wanted nothing more.” Alexander closed his eyes and sighed audibly as Hephaestion’s fingers continued to work the tension from his muscles. “Shall I light the lamps at the table?” Hephaestion inquired, displaying his Athenian blood in his polite, discreet mannerisms. Alexander had learned many years ago how to interpret them. Hephaestion wished to know if he would desire more conversation, as they shared many nights, or if Alex was inviting him to share his pillow.

Alexander sipped his wine, and then licked his lips. “Leave only one lit, near the bed.” He cast a meaningful gaze toward his friend. He remembered that once, before leaving Pella, Hephaestion had mentioned that he loved being able to see Alexander in such moments. 

Hephaestion turned, but made it only halfway through the archway before Alexander stopped him with a word. “And Hephaestion,” he smiled to himself, keeping his face hidden from his lover. “See if Darius has oil we might use.”

Hephaestion felt his entire body grow warmer at these suggestive words, and he forgot the coolness of the night around him. “Finish your wine, Alexander. I’ll only be a moment.” 

This would be a welcome return to passion for the two lovers, and one long awaited. The preparation and aftermath surrounding the battle at Gaugamela had left them precious few moments of intimacy. He recalled well Alexander’s nervous stare from the tent’s entrance as Phillip, the only physician Alexander would trust to tend him, had bandaged and sutured his wounds from the day’s battle. It was the first time since leaving Pella, Alex had realized then, that he had seen his friend without clothing. Reclining easily on a very simple wooden chair, Hephaestion had noticed as his King’s eyes had shifted from the doctor’s hands to the body beneath them, and it had intrigued him immensely that Alexander would look to him with such unmasked hunger. Alexander had held Hephaestion’s arm and chest close to him and helped him lean forward when the surgeon had laid brand to the deepest wound; a brutal gouge to the well-muscled shoulder that had left his arm in a sling for many days. As the red iron had hissed angrily, Alexander had flinched far more than Hephaestion. The moment was remembered, though, because it was the closest they’d been in many weeks, and Hephaestion had later whispered in Alex’s ear that, unclothed for Phillip’s ministrations, he had quite forgotten the pain as he gave every effort not to harden as Alexander pressed so tightly against him.

Hephaestion took his time extinguishing the lamps. Though he was not yet aroused, he could feel a subtle excitement twisting in his belly. The last time he had felt so giddy to be with Alexander must have been years ago, in Mieza. When the room was dim, left only with the shuddering light of the bedside brazier, he went to a cabinet by the door, and with little search he found what he sought. Having seen Darius’s harem of beautiful young women and alluring eunuchs, Hephaestion was hardly surprised to find that the late King of Persia had kept a moderate stock of fine oils close at hand. There was also a vast store of incense on the top shelf, which Hephaestion took a small amount of, as well. The bottle of oil, he set on the bedside table. He was lighting the incense as Alexander entered from the balcony and drew the doors shut behind him, and Hephaestion saw immediately his lover’s reaction to the heavy, aphrodisiacal scent of Persian amber. Hephaestion drew back the covers as Alex approached him, circling around the huge bed to stand behind him. 

With gentle hands, Alexander reached out and removed the small bronze clips that had held Hephaestion’s hair away from his face. Hephaestion was still, waiting to see what Alexander would do, but his wait was brief. Taking his shoulder, Alex turned Hephaestion to face him and enfolded him in his arms for the second time that night, though now the embrace held the promise of passion. Laying his head upon Hephaestion’s higher shoulder, he inhaled deeply, finding that the smell of his friend’s hair had a far more powerful effect on him than the overwhelmingly sensual scent of Persian incense. Hephaestion’s hair smelled of spice and dark wine. Revelling in this sensation, Alexander let his left hand slip down Hephaestion’s back and slide around his body, coming to rest on a hipbone. “Let me undress you,” Alexander whispered into the dark hair. He felt Hephaestion nod against him.

With a tender reverence that belied the indeterminable strength in his hands, he shifted the Persian robes away from Hephaestion’s skin, until they were coiled in shimmering folds at their feet. Hephaestion had closed his eyes, and the very edges of his lips curled upward ever so slightly. Alexander knew this expression, and love immensely the sight of it, and the sound of his lover’s measured breaths. Alexander could read also the trust in his Hephaestion’s face, and was reminded in that moment of how they had nurtured that trust from boyhood, when Hephaestion had once murmured the name of Akilleos as Alex had held him in ecstasy. Alex gathered Hephaestion’s long hair in his fist and lifted it away from the slender neck, which he kissed lightly. “I have needed this.” 

“And what you need I need to give,” Hephaestion replied solemnly. Alexander’s hand was roaming over his chest now, and he massaged the boyish muscles that swelled so slightly from Hephaestion’s breast, which was, strangely, as bare as it had been in there youth. His firm touches brought his thumb to cross over on tight brown peak, and suddenly Hephaestion’s eyes were open, and he flung his head back in a deep groan.

“Alexander.” 

“Yes, Hephaestion, I am here.” His hands began a slow descent then over desert-warmed skin, over each heaving flank and across his belly, until he could feel a certain unmistakable heat rising from Hephaestion’s skin. He meant to grasp that heat and kindle it to flames, but Hephaestion slapped his hands away roughly.

“This will end too soon if you keep playing me like a damned lyre,” he laughed, beginning to divest Alexander of his robes. 

“Oh, but what a siren’s song I can draw from you!” Alexander smiled, as the last of his clothing fell from him and to the floor. Alexander reached to the nightstand behind him and found the oil. He and Hephaestion shared a smile, and Alexander’s eyes instructed his lover. Hephaestion lay across the bed, sighing at the luxurious feeling of the silken sheets on his stomach, and parted his legs slightly. Alexander plied him gently then, until, hips trembling, he uttered Alexander’s name, and Alexander answered. “Turn to face me,” said Alexander. “For here, you are no soldier, and I am no King. We will always love as equals, Hephaestion.”

“You love too much the sound of your own voice –oh, gods,” Hephaestion moaned wildly as Alexander pressed into him in one slow thrust. He could feel his nails sinking into Alexander’s back, but the other man did not flinch, and his gasp was one that did not mean pain.  

It was not long before Alexander and Hephaestion were both without words, and trying failingly to pace their frenzied union. “Oh, my sweet Patroklus, I – I love you...” but when Alexander whispered against one sweat-dampened shoulder, and grasped fiercely at Hephaestion beneath him, the world before their eyes became fire.

“Alexander, I’m yours,” Hephaestion wept before abandoning thought and crying out, as if with his very soul, as his first shudders lifted him from the bed into Alexander’s waiting arms. A burning heat converged and exploded between them then, and, shouting his release, Hephaestion cleaved to Alexander’s chest. The moment of bliss seemed to last days, though he heard the beloved beat of Alex’s heart only once before it was spent and passed. 

The two fell back to the bed as if returning to Earth at last and their foreheads pressed together as they wept softly. All hardships they’d known since their last coupling were expelled and forgotten. When they parted, their touched were only sweet and tender, and they embraced beneath the sheets, breathing deeply of the amber incense and drifting in idle conversation.

“What did you mean,” Hephaestion asked suddenly, “Today, when you told Stateira that I too am Alexander?” 

Alexander smiled, settling back against the soft pillows. “I was thinking of Aristotle. Do you remember when he said that friendship was like one soul in two bodies? I thought of that. You are Alexander, just as I am Hephaestion.”

Hephaestion grinned, again imitating the cock of Alexander’s head which so peeved him at times. “Well, I think I’ll call you Narcissus and be done with it, for if Alexander is Hephaestion, then he who is Hephaestion worships himself, who is Alexander. Are we really so vain, to be in love?”

Alexander laughed. “And all these years, my father told me I was the one who listened far too well to Aristotle’s teachings. You’d do better as a philosopher than a soldier. But, I will confess, that if loving you is vanity, then I am hopelessly vain. It’s not vanity, though, Hephaestion. To be in love with you is to be one thing only, my friend.” He watched as Hephaestion rose and extinguished the brazier’s light. They held one another close, protective and trusting. As they hovered on the edge of sated sleep, Alexander murmured into the dark hair of his Hephaestion the very words that meant everything to them both. “To love you, Hephaestion, is to be Alexander,” he whispered, and then was lost to dreams.

 
 
Somatophylakes
09 April 2005 @ 09:31 pm
Aragorn looked back over his shoulder one final time, toward Imladris...toward his home. He looked back toward his mother and Elrond, and toward the world of Elves, and he blessed them all, silently. From his position atop the valley wall over-looking the Last Homely House, he could see the colours of dawn gathering in the east, and thought them painfully serene. He had left his home without saying farewell to anyone. His mother and Elrond knew of his plans to depart, and he could not bear to go before their eyes. He did not wish to cause them any pain. His mother, especially, would weep to see her only son go. She had long opposed him leaving Imladris, and when he had begun to accompany his brothers on their smaller errands with hunting parties near the Trollshaws west of Imladris at only fifteen years of age, she had spent months displeased with Lord Elrond for giving her son permission. His mother had never wholly left behind the pain of seeing her husband carried to her side, already blinded by the arrow of some Orc, only to die of fever in her arms the next day. She feared the same for her son.

He looked back toward his brothers, Elladan and Elrohir, and smiled slightly. It would be no age before he saw those two again. They were often abroad, and would take no pains to avoid him. Many times, he had heard them speak of the Rangers from the North, and of their dealings with them. If it were these men Aragorn went to join - provided that they would accept him - perhaps he would meet with them again soon. Aragorn rejoiced at having some scrap of his past to look forward to.

He looked back toward Arwen. She had been most on his mind of late, as he prepared to leave, and he had even gone against his better judgment and gone to her room that morning. She was still abed, and sleeping as peacefully as any could. He would not wake her. However, he had crept into the room and lain another blanket atop his love, for though the fire still blazed from the log he’d added during one of his midnight walks the night before, there was a chill draft. Only now did he realise that this was done without reason, for, being an Elf, Arwen would not have felt the cold. He was glad to have forgotten, for he now had that last image of Arwen to keep, lying there, bathed in the fast-fading starlight. Although Aragorn had never dared to imagine Luthien, he felt then that Arwen’s beauty must have exceeded even that of Tinúviel.

A sense of regret filled Aragorn. At last, he parted ways with the only one who would see him go. He bid farewell to Estel, the child he had been, and, with his fingers tracing over the hilt of Narsíl, concealed beneath his cloak, he accepted Aragorn, Arathorn’s only son and Isildur’s last heir. He turned away then, from all that he had ever loved, and left Gilraen’s boy Estel behind, to die in winter’s cold.

He had walked at great lengths before, and he was more than fit and able, but that day he had begun his journey with a shadow of weariness hanging over him, and by the middle of the day, he was feeling as if he was in need of rest. Traversing the steep, rocky inclines surrounding Imladris had been especially difficult in the biting cold, and crossing the ford at Bruinen had been most unpleasant. After this he had set a quicker pace, and had made good time. Now, the trees were thickening, and he knew he must be coming near to the Trollshaws. He was in no unfamiliar place as of yet, and decided to stop and rest while he still knew the land. He had brought no maps with him from Lord Elrond’s library, but had spent many hours alone studying them until they were clear in his mind. In fact, he had taken very little. Two spare sets of clothing lay folded at the bottom of his satchel, with a small stock of bandages and his own supply of herbs. He had taken a dozen squares of way bread with him as well. It was not much, but lembas kept like no other food, and he planned to forage or hunt the majority of the time. Purposefully hidden from himself he had taken a large pouch of pipe-weed, and tucked into his belt was his father’s hand-carved pipe. He had smiled briefly as he’d packed it, thinking of how angry his mother would have been if she’d known that her son had developed the same habit of smoking that had plagued her when her own husband had indulged in it. ‘Yes,’ Aragorn thought ruefully. “She would be most displeased with me.‘ He carried also a meagre bedroll, a full quiver of arrows, and his bow, and at his side were Narsíl’s shards and his own sword, that had once been his father’s.

And his head was full of memories. He liked not to dwell on them as he walked, though, for his feet would begin to drag and his mood would darken, and he would be tempted to turn back to his home and his family. He could say that he had only been away hunting, and be left alone on the matter. But, driven by some will that did not seem to be his own, he pressed onward until he reached a point at which turning back seemed impossible.

As the afternoon drew on, he went deeper and deeper into the forest until the chill wind could no longer reach him, and he found a clearing and collapsed there. Aragorn was twenty years old, but he did not look it. As one of the long-lived Dúnedain, he would be confined to a very boyish appearance for at least five more years - a fact which had often discouraged him. The few men who were not Rangers that he had met had treated him quite disrespectfully, and had told him that he would be silent until spoken to, or some nonsense such as that. He had always disapproved of how the race of men spoke to their children, and he had vowed that day that if he were ever to have any children he would speak to them kindly and with the same understanding with which his mother had spoken to him.

However, he felt more like a young child that he ever had at that moment. He sat, utterly alone in that little clearing. The realisation that he was, in truth, still quite small came upon him suddenly, and he sat down between the age-old roots of an enormous oak and drew his knees up to his chin. Elrond had told him not long before that he looked fair, and come early into manhood, and though he was flattered he hardly believed his foster-father. He felt like no long-lost Lord of Men at present, nor as is he even belonged with the likes of the great Dúnedain of the North, much less their Chieftain. Aragorn realised then the juxtaposition he had thrown himself into. He was comparing his capabilities now to the tasks that would be the work of even the greatest man’s life. Yet, even with such reasoning at his side.

Aragorn was alone. There was no one there to see him, and so he began to cry. He was silently, but there tears rolled down his cheeks in abundance, and his shoulders shook. Then, behind him, there came the sound of a horse...one single horse. He thought that whatever rider would come upon him alone in the middle of the day so unthinkingly must not have known that he was there. Although the air was frigid and the forest quiet as death, Aragorn could feel none of the evil power thrumming about him he had heard was present when a Nazgúl was near. Still, his hand rested on his dagger readily. Deciding that if it were an enemy that came nigh, surprise would be the best tactic. He feigned sleep, his heavy cloak wrapped about him and his knife drawn beneath it, poised for attack if one was necessary. The horse drew up beside him and halted. Aragorn gripped his weapon tighter. Then, he felt something entirely unexpected. There was a rush of hot breath against his face, accompanied by a soft nicker. The horse nudged his brow insistently, as if the it knew he was not truly asleep. So, Aragorn opened his eyes to greet whatever rider had decided to be so bold, for better or worse.

There was no rider. The saddle of the horse was empty. All Aragorn was met with was the tip of a long nose and a velvety nuzzle. The horse looked expectantly at him. Aragorn rose and stroked the beast’s powerful ebony neck. This was, without a doubt, an Elvish steed. Aragorn wondered if his rider might have been unhorsed, perhaps injured somewhere nearby. Checking through the saddle bag for any hint at the rider’s identity, he found it empty, but for a single piece of folded parchment at it’s bottom. He drew it out and unfolded it.

Estel,
I know that you must leave. Remember those who love you, and know that I love you. Keep me in mind. Roheryn is very young, and he shall be with you for many years. He shall follow when you go.
Arwen

Aragorn wiped the last of the tears from his eyes. He tied his own bag onto the saddle, and mounted. The horse was indeed young, for with a rider atop him he became very excited, and Aragorn spurred him on, into thinner parts of the forest, and together, they left familiar places behind, and went out into the Wild.

 
 
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Somatophylakes
07 April 2005 @ 11:43 am
Identify and explain the importance of key events, people, and groups related to the causes, conditions, and consequences of the Cold War. Example: Events – Announcement of the Marshall Plan (1947), enunciation of the Truman Doctrine (1947), Berlin Airlift (1948–1949), formation of North American Treaty Alliance (NATO, 1949), Point Four Program (1949), Korean War (1951–1953), formation of Southeast Asia Treaty Organization (SEATO, 1954), U-2 crisis (1960). People – Harry Truman, George Kennan, Joseph McCarthy, Douglas MacArthur, Dwight Eisenhower, John Foster Dulles. Groups – House Un-American Activities Committee (HUAC), Communist Party of the United States.
 
 
Somatophylakes
23 January 2005 @ 02:57 pm
    Aragorn looked back over his shoulder one final time, towards Imladris...towards his home. He looked back towards his mother and Elrond, and towards the world of Elves, and he blessed them all, silently. From his position atop the valley wall over-looking the Last Homely House, he could see the colours of dawn gathering in the east, and thought them painfully serene. He had left his home without saying farewell to anyone. His mother and Elrond knew of his plans to depart, and he could not bear to go before their eyes. He did not wish to cause them any pain. His mother, especially, would weep to see her only son go. She had long opposed him leaving Imladris, and when he had begun to accompany his brothers on their smaller errands with hunting parties near the Trollshaws west of Imladris at only fifteen years of age, she had spent months displeased with Lord Elrond for giving her son permission. His mother had never wholly left behind the pain of seeing her husband carried to her side, already blinded by the arrow of some Orc, only to die of fever in her arms the next day. She feared the same for her son.
    He looked back toward his brothers, Elladan and Elrohir, and smiled slightly. It would be no age before he saw those two again. They were often abroad, and would take no pains to avoid him. Many times, he had heard them speak of the Rangers from the North, and of their dealings with them. If it were these men Aragorn went to join - provided that they would accept him - perhaps he would meet with them again soon. Aragorn rejoiced at having some scrap of his past to look forward to.
    He looked back toward Arwen. She had been most on his mind of late, as he prepared to leave, and he had even gone against his better judgement and gone to her room that morning. She was still abed, and sleeping as peacefully as any could. He would not wake her. However, he had crept into the room and lain another blanket atop his love, for though the fire still blazed from the log he’d added during one of his midnight walks the night before, there was a chill draft. Only now did he realise that this was done without reason, for, being an Elf, Arwen would not have felt the cold. He was glad to have forgotten, for he now had that last image of Arwen to keep, lying there, bathed in the fast-fading starlight. Although Aragorn had never dared to imagine Luthien, he felt then that Arwen’s beauty must have exceeded even that of Tinúviel.
    A sense of regret filled Aragorn. At last, he parted ways with the only one who would see him go. He bid farewell to Estel, the child he had been, and, with his fingers tracing over the hilt of Narsíl, concealed beneath his cloak, he accepted Aragorn, Arathorn’s only son and Isildur’s last heir. He turned away then, from all that he had ever loved, and left behind the Gilraen’s boy Estel, to die in winter’s cold.
 
 
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Somatophylakes
24 December 2004 @ 12:58 pm

Today, September
I walked for the first time down the street
That runs away behind my apartment
It seemed as if the black girls had all emerged
From behind their broken screen doors
To stare at me as I passed,
To wonder what I was thinking
I cut my palms as I jumped the fence
Because the gate to M.L.K.'s Freedom Park
Was locked with a rusted chain
I laughed to see the painting on plywood
Of Martin himself, preaching equality
Surrounded by white doves and black children
The paints had faded in the weather
And now he had no colour
I kicked my legs like mama taught me
Until I was swinging myself weightless
The arc I made reached its zenith above the pale gravel
And I let go of the creaking, rusty chains
And I drift in nostalgia
As the swing falls back to earth without me
I linger before giving myself up to the mercilous rocks
I walk away, leaving spots of my blood on the ground
Where I landed after exersizing my ability to sit on the air
As a make my tired exit, I notice
That the faded sign at my side was meant to be read
Stating firmly that five feet was too tall to play in the park
At five feet and nine inches I shrugged
And with the heel of my wornout shoe
I kicked away the parched dust
That shimmered with shattered glass
And let the cloud of it burn my throat
Let my hands become grimy with it
Martin would be proud
Even he knew that people deserved to remember
As I had remembered
What it felt like to fall out of heaven
And I continued to kick, just like mama taught me
Until I had allowed another quarter inch of the world
Into Freedom Park

 
 
Somatophylakes
24 December 2004 @ 12:51 pm

She falls, slowly, into her dreams
Watches the mist part and her vision clear
There he lays on the battlefield
Barely breathing
Weeping
Heart breaking
For he is dying without her farewell.
She goes to him, lifts him into her arms
And cries
Sheds tears to heal him
She fears to lose him
And to lose herself to only a moment
But does not let go.
She holds on.
The old blade lies broken, clutched in his hand
It serves no longer
She wakes
And shall forge it anew.

Restless, he sinks
From the night’s darker hours
Still aware of the firelight and chill wind
The fog is swept away, the veil taken from his eyes
And he is home again
The wind warm
A song on the breeze
And he is saddened
By this bittersweet memory
He knows he only dreams
There rests his love
In a quiet garden
Eyes shut against tears
Skin paled
Weeping, as if the snow melts
He prays that she sleeps
And lays himself at her side
Kisses her cold lips
And promises
Promises to live.
The blade is re-forged
Shining with the light of her eyes
He wakes
Rises
And the battle must continue.

 
 
Somatophylakes
24 December 2004 @ 12:46 pm
Brynn approached his master’s bedchamber, making every effort to be silent. Kalin had been in a foul mood for a month now, ever since some trying ordeal that had evidently taken Losu out of his life for good. During that month, he’d not requested Brynn’s presence, nor so much as spoken to him. Of course, Brynn, lingering in the last years of his youth, was ever impatient, and, after what he considered a reasonable amount of time for his master’s recovery, took matters into his own hands.

He attempted to make his rap on the door sound smart, but realised it had come off as weak and rather pitiful. Nonetheless, the door was open in a few short moments, and there was Kalin, sporting his ever monotonous expression of disgust toward all things. Brynn felt a little rush of excitement as seeing the tall man again, and in his thrill, forgot to say or do anything.

“And?” Kalin sneered rudely at his servant’s silence.

Brynn suddenly remembered where he was and made a small bow. “You wouldn’t mind if I stepped in for a bit, would you my lord?”

Kalin seemed to feign pondering this for a moment. “Oh, I suppose...but pray, don’t bother me with anything silly...”

Brynn sighed with relief as the lock fell to behind him. Looking around the familiar room, he was shocked to return to the subject of his former attentions and find him shirtless. “I must be doing something right,” he thought absently, continuing to watch Kalin undress.

Kalin had noticed the boy’s eyes upon him. “I was just off to bed,” he stated nonchalantly. “I’m sure you’re coming.”

Brynn was very surprised indeed to hear such a request, expecting that Kalin would still be brooding about the incident that seemed to have lost him Losu. Then again, he considered, what better cure for Kalin than rough love-making with a boy barely come of age? Strong wine aside, of course, Brynn recalled with a smile. But, trusting it was what Kalin had in mind, he removed his clothes, as well, and set them aside.

Kalin watched with avid interest as Brynn bent down to pick his breeches up off the floor, wondering of the boy was deliberately teasing him with that tight little orifice and those firm, heavy orbs.

Brynn made a catwalk over to the bed, much to Kalin’s amusement, and knelt before his Lord, who was now totally nude, but for a pair of high leather boots, which he’d left on as a sort of joke. Kalin may have considered it humorous, but the sight of his master seated on the edge of the large bed, legs casually spread wide, in no more than his boots made Brynn’s erection spring to life.

Slowly lowering his head until his hot breath played upon Kalin's sensitive skin, he drew his tongue over the velvety head of Kalin's substantial manhood, making him groan softly. Suddenly, Kalin took him by the shoulders, and they both toppled backward onto the floor, Kalin bearing down on Brynn, kissing him roughly. Brynn spread his legs wide and hooked his long thin les around the small of Kalin's back, and bucked upward into him. They stayed their for a while, rolling around on the rug like dog until Brynn was near toppling over his bounds, at which point Kalin stopped, and checked their passions.

Kissing him slowly, Kalin sat them up, and moved them back to his bed. Still panting, Brynn let a wide smile spread across his face, and he reached for the wine that sat at Kalin's bedside. Cupping his palm, he poured a good deal of the strong drink into his hand. Understanding, Kalin bared his sharp alabaster teeth in a knowing grin. He leaned down and began to lap the wine up like a cat., and one would guess that he purred in the same manner.

Gradually, Brynn lowered his hand until his hand was cupped beneath his slightly diminished erection. Kalin laughed softly at the boy's very single-tracked mind, but soon leant down and continued to lick, though now he went about it with broader stokes, much to Brynn's delight. As Kalin did this, Brynn felt himself beginning to peak early once again. Deciding he must learn some self-control, he turned his attentions elsewhere. Slipping his free hand beneath Kalin's body and took one of his master's pebbled nipples between thumb and forefinger, teasing it roughly. Kalin moaned with the rush of pleasure his servant created, and suddenly Brynn realised that, if he wished to hold himself back, evoking those small vibrations of Kalin's full lips just would not do.

Once the wine had been consumed, Brynn pushed him backward onto the bed and mounted him, still fingering his erected nipples fiercely. Expected to enter Brynn, Kalin reached for the vial of lamp oil contained in the top drawer of the bed stand, but Brynn grabbed it from his hand, and, in minutes, had rubbed it over both their engorged cocks.

The feel of Brynn’s heated oil-slicked skin against him made Kalin gasp with delight. Rubbing his fingers once over Brynn's cock, Kalin trailed his fingertips around the boy’s side until they were stroking the shallow cleft, and then working inward to the tight little entrance. Brynn gasped and moaned as Kalin worked one slender digit into him, the lamp oil easing the way. The boy thrust downward onto his master's hand, so that the tip of Kalin's finger came close to hitting his sweet spot, but Kalin would cleverly curl his finger each time Brynn drove himself onto it, teasing him increasingly, as each time he came a little closer to giving his young servant what he wanted.

Soon, Kalin’s erection became to hard to ignore, and he removed the fingers he had inserted and laid Brynn beside him on the bed, and then slowly moved to lie atop him. They smiled at one another, their eyes half-lidded with lust. Without removing himself, Kalin took a wooden box from beneath his bed. As Brynn recognised it, Kalin felt the boy’s cock harden further against his abdomen, and could barely keep his hands from shaking as he opened the box. From it, much to Brynn’s shock, he took an odd looking device, with two small clamps which had cruelly serrated edges, attached by a fine steel chain (made adjustable by a hook) to a small hinged metal ring. Laying the ominous looking thing on Brynn’s chest, he took from the box an old silk scarf. Shifting upward, he bound Brynn’s skinny wrists to an ornate column on the headboard. When he looked downward he saw how trustingly Brynn watched him, and was fascinated. This young man knew Kalin would never cause him unpleasant pain, and that if he ever asked Kalin to stop, the man would not hesitate to do so, with this in mind, Kalin clamped the sharp devices around each hardened nub protruding from Brynn’s heaving chest. At first, Brynn gasped and groaned in pain, and he softened a little. But Kalin, leaving the second part of the contrivance unattached, had him aroused with a few deft strokes, and after a few moments of this sensation, Kalin felt the boys steel-hard cock twitch against his own once again.

Brynn drew his knees up and allowed Kalin to position himself at his entrance, the heat of his master’s erection nearly burning him. Kalin entered him in one smooth movement, and Brynn had to fight not to topple over the edge at that. Kalin began to thrust slowly at first, but soon, driven on by lust, sped up until he was driving himself relentlessly into his servant, and both of them were speaking incoherently to one another, Brynn urging Kalin on in strong words. Suddenly, his desperate words turned into a loud moan, rising in volume until he spilt himself all over his own stomach and Kalin’s pumping fist. Kalin’s body quivered momentarily, and he came deep inside Brynn, with a deep resonant purr.

Kalin took an old rag from the bedside table and cleaned them both off, and then unbound Brynn’s hands. With the soft silken material, he wiped sweat from them both. Hushing Brynn comfortingly, he removed the clamps from the boy’s chest and daubed away the rivulets of blood that ran from the small injuries. Brushing his thumbs over each nipple, he healed the painful cuts, and Brynn sighed with relief.

Without a word to one another, they curled up together, Brynn nestling into his master’s ebony hair, and Kalin holding this boy, that he had practically raised, and loved with all his life. They kissed, and kissed again, eventually slowing. Brynn fell into dreams first, with Kalin’s fingers playing gently in his golden curls. Kalin kept his heavy eyelids open for a few minutes longer, and soon decided that the wounds Losu had caused him would heal in time, if he accepted the love of another. Leaning down, he kissed Brynn’s forehead once more, drew him closer to his warm body, and passed into a dreamless sleep.
 
 
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Somatophylakes
24 December 2004 @ 09:28 am

Ce n'est pas une histoire signifiée pour le divertissement. Ce n'est aucun récit, bien qu'il ait beaucoup de moraux. Ce n'est aucun grand travail littéraire, cela un jour sera tenu dans l'estime élevée, et je ne suis aucun grand auteur. C'est des excuses...au Darren Shan...avec qui j'avais eu l'intention d'avoir beaucoup plus de conversations.

 

Prologue


I was born Larten Matisse, to Jean Matisse and Marie Chaumont sometime in the winter of 1804, in the days of harshest cold. My father and mother were employed to an old innkeeper in Dieppe that year, my mother as a serving wench and my father, younger by a few years, as a stable boy, held in rather low regard. When the two found my mother pregnant, they took themselves into hiding, fearing the retributions of their scandalous act. My mother gave birth to me in a gatekeeper’s shed, far on the eastern edge of town, I am told. After my birth, young Jean and Marie thought it necessary to flee the small city of Dieppe, deeming it a dangerous place, hardly fit to raise a child in. Many murders had been reported during the latter part of the year, and accusations were flying like a plague through the littered streets. Yet still, no matter how many were executed, imprisoned, or exsorcised, villagers were still disappearing, and were dead once retrieved. Always their throats were slit wide, by what must have been the sharpest blade made my man, and totally drained of their blood. It was said to be the work of the Devil himself, and Dieppe saw many a girl burn and many a man hang for witchery that season. Fearing for my safety and their own, my parents began a long trek across the lesser known roads of France.

Until I was eight years old, we moved about the country all but constantly, staying the longest in Bourges and Vienne, towns in which my father happened to find lasting work by some small trade or another. Still, eventually, we were forced to move on. The murders and ill fortune seemed to follow us across France. I would forget my fear of being slaughtered in my bed for a year or so, and then a town crier would herald the death of some neighbour of mine just as the sun rose, telling of the circumstances of the murdered, and of the hellish way it had happened. Then, mother would order me to gather my things, and we would be gone by nightfall.

My father once said to me that it seemed as if Satan was closing his fist about the world...Satan tient le monde dans sa prise, et nous enferme. He repeated it each night, shortly after his last prayer, like a plea to the Lord to save him from it. I no longer slept at as I should have, with the fear of having my blood stolen from me far too strong.

On what my parents said was my eighth birthday, or near enough to it, we settled in Digne. It was a well-to-do little place, and my mother and father were swift to find work in the town’s most well known inn, La Chambre de la Ville. The innkeeper had become short on staff when all the young men crossed the sea to America, immigrating to the growing land for profit. The old man’s name was Claude, and he was a round, red-faced man who liked to laugh. Indeed, he would burst into hysterics at almost anything. Even the coming of Satan to France and all the murders he managed to brush away with a wave of his hand and a chuckle.

My father served as a quartermaster, and my mother as a barmaid. In a year, I had assumed the position of stable boy, tending every guest’s horse with the utmost care and minding Claude’s beloved livestock. The pay was small, but Claude was kind enough give us rooms on the dusty third floor, which he no longer used, and afforded us food. I was alone most of the time, but for when my mother came to my room at night to help me say my prayers, before going back to her work in the kitchens and the bar. It was during this time that I found that I was in my element in solitude. Also, although I never mentioned it to mother, as she would be most horrified, but I had realised before my tenth winter that I held no belief in God. Although I was quite set in this, I still felt estranged from others, and feared His wrath against my sins.

Six years we stayed there, and soon it felt as if it had always been home. We had never remained anywhere so long, and I was coming to enjoy it. I learned the town, until its streets formed perfect maps in my head. I built a life there, and comforted myself by thinking that here, in the small town of Digne, the Devil could not reach me. However, I remained afraid of the dark. In one horrible night, all my nightmares reached their final convergence.


Chapter One

"The Murder"
Digne, France, 1818

I was once an awkward boy, struggling to come of age. I was tall for my years, yet frightfully thin, with a huge mop of the thickest, most unruly orange curls ever seen. My eyesight was horrible then; everything was just a fuzzy shape until it was about a foot away, and it was difficult to read. It was a sad thing for a boy of my maturity to fear the dark as I feared it. Every time I saw the sun go down my stomach would churn, knowing that tonight would be the night those murderers found me, slit my throat, and sucked my blood as I died. Lack of sleep had made me terribly pale, and the circles beneath my eyes had grown so dark that folk often inquired if I had been hit. Once, there was talk in the town that I had been witched, a rumour started by a few village children whom I did not like. Thankfully, my father had quickly put those rumours to rest.

During my fifteenth year, I slept less than ever, but my fear was less. I was an insomniac by habit, by then. I had stopped looking forward to my work in the morning, as I had when I was young, and now could only manage to look sick. I wanted more than anything to be able to bring myself to shut my eyes each night.

 

Yet again, the night was passing on, and the darkness was waning, leaving me in its wake with no sleep. I lay still in my bed, listening to the decrescendo of voices in the inn as many customers went to their rooms for the night. I smiled. Soon my mother and father would come up the creaky wooden stairs and creep through my room, each sparing me a brief kiss as they went to their own, and then I would be able to sleep. Then I could let my heavy lids fall...

Downstairs, someone slammed the wide oak door of the inn. I might have thought it was some drunkard going out to sing and find a place to pass out, but then I heard voices down in the Commons. My hearing was very good (making up for my terrible eyesight), and I could pick out a few of the words being said. Their tones sounded suspicious to me. I have not knwn since if it was paranoia that did this to me, or good sense, and there is no saying whether or not it served me well in the end. I decided immediately that I had no liking for these newcomers. As silently as I was able, I rose and crept to the wide landing and down the first flight of stairs. I did not go all the way to the next landing, but instead concealed myself in the shadows of the second floor hallway, and there, I listened.

“Bonjour,” I heard my mother saying, with her usual tired cheer. “I’m afraid the innkeeper’s gone to his bed for the night, but I can write down your names and let you pay in the morning...”

“That will not be necessary,” said one of the men. His accent was foreign, but that was the least of my worries. La Chambre housed visitors from as far east as Genoa, being so close to the border. “We have no need of rooms. But we do desire drinks, my dear, so if you could be so kind...”

“I’m sorry, sirs, the bar’s closed for tonight,” my mother said politely. Even from the landing, I could hear her stowing away the heavy mugs and making ready to come to bed. In the hall below me, I could hear my father’s quiet footfalls as he went about, locking all the unused rooms. At least he would be near at hand if there were trouble. “There’s an inn across the way that’s still open, if you want to --”

But the man cut her off, very rudely. I heard my father stow his keys away, ready to protect her. “You mistake me, mademoiselle.” Slow, measured footsteps made there way across the room, and for a moment I was afraid someone was going to come up to the landing and see me, but they passed the stairs and entered the first floor hallway, coming towards my father. He held his ground. “My party shall only be a moment, madam, and then...” Steel rang softly, my father made to dash for the bar, but he fell silent, and as I listened, two bodies fell to the floor with muffled thuds. “You shall never see us again.”

I had to shove my fist into my mouth to keep silent. Directly below me, I heard the smallest of sounds. Something was snuffling about...sucking...feeding. I could hardly draw breath. What seemed ages after, I heard the footsteps again, and then the door. I would go downstairs and see what had happened to my parents (I tried not to believe that I already knew), then go to the innkeeper and raise the alarm in Digne, before these men could slaughter anyone else.

The candles in the Commons had been blown out, the blazing fire reduced to a view glowing embers, by the light of which I crossed the large Common room. I stood in its centre, not daring to move. "Papa," I called once into the darkness. My voice barely reached a trembling whisper. "Mama?" No one answered me. I dared not look to the bar, or to the hallway, and just stood there, shaking, breath bated. Slowly, I turned to face the door, which was still swinging back and forth, creaking quietly on its hinges. Then, a slight tap made me jump, as if someone had grabbed my insides and given them a violent jerk. Stumbling backward, my hands found the wooden panelling of the bar. Then, before I could check my fall, I felt the touch of cold, lifeless fingers on the bare back of my neck. Finally letting loose a cry of fear, I spun around, to face my mother’s white features, staring blindly into my eyes. Then, another pair of hands found me, not lifeless, but every bit as cold. I spun around, only to find myself confronted by a strange, terrible face. Dark, purplish skin encased a bloated body, and deeply bloodshot eyes bore into me.

“Well, well,” the man said, taking hold of my chin and forcing me to look upward at him. “What have we here? A meal or a potential ally?”

“You’ve killed them!” I said, frantic. “You killed my Mama and Papa!”

“No, young man,” said another voice, and suddenly the light of a single candelabra flooded the room illuminating the faces of the demons. All were as discoloured as the first, all as bloated, and all as horrible. “We have honoured them.”

A third stepped out of the shadows of the hallway, what must have been my father’s blood staining his lips a deeper crimson. “He is young...he is no use to us as food; he’s sickly. Take him to Arkadiy, I say. He may be able to do something with him.”

“Little, but I suppose we should not take chances with Arkadiy. Where is he based?” the one before me asked, still inspecting me critically.

“Cannes, I should think,” said the other.

“Good,” he answered, and lifted me easily onto his back. I wanted very much to struggle, or at least scream for help, but shock had rendered my body useless. I felt as if I would be sick soon.

Suddenly, all the demons looked upward, their ears straining. It was a moment before I heard anything. Then, clearly, I recognised the creaking of the stairs. In a moment, a young girl appeared, and she laid eyes on me from the second floor landing. She stared at the scene before her for a moment, and then screamed loudly. I saw nothing, but before I could blink the demon who had just spoken appeared beside the one that held me, the little girl on his back. "Come!" yelled the one that carried her. "She has raised the whole town."

And with that, we were carried outside, that little crying girl and I, and I held my breath as the demons ran, gaining speed, until we seemed to have entered a different world. They're taking me to Hell with them!" I thought. I am going to Hell with these monsters because I did not love in God! I shall burn!

Moments later, I fell unconscious, and the image of my mother's lifeless face returned to me.

Cannes

It was a long time before the November cold woke me. I heard voices first, speaking quietly in a language I did not know. I opened my eyes. An old stone building surrounded me, seeming ready to crumple in on itself. Squinting, it became apparent the place had not been used in many years. I tried to sit up, but then I realised that my hands and feet were bound. I tested the ropes about my wrists and ankles, but there would be no escaping them. I looked to the group of demons nearest to me. They had gathered around a fire, and seemed to know that I was awake, but were disinterested for the moment. I was absolutely shivering with cold and fear, and I found myself wishing then that I owned more than my breeches to sleep in. I rolled over. The little girl they had taken was huddled in the corner, still crying quietly, her black locks mussed and damp. I dragged myself over to her side, figuring we must be in this predicament together, and with the help of the wall, I managed to sit up.

I had never dealt with small children before, especially one who was this frightened, but she did not hesitate to take hold of my arm and clutch me as if I was here father. I understood suddenly that I was all she had left, and I held her close in turn. My parents were gone too, now, I thought. They were gone with somewhat more finality than this child’s were

A moment later, one of the men, if they were indeed human, turned away from the fire to gaze darkly at the girl and me. I held her closer, ready to shield her if that thing decided to come near. He rose and approached us, but fortunately, he grabbed me. He lifted me to my feet and practically dragged me to the fire. For a second I was sure they would burn me, but I had not the strength to struggle. I was tired and still in shock from the sight of my dead mother. Fortunately, the demon did not intend to make a sacrifice of me. Looking toward the others, as if they were all anticipating something, he brandished one long, impossibly sharp fingernail, and brought it towards my exposed throat. Then, I realised what I should have known since first setting eyes on these creatures. I should have known by those bloated bodies and hungry gazes...by the crimson lips of the vampire who had killed my father. I should have remembered all the horrible legend that stole sleep from me those many nights. This creature was no demon. This creature, preparing to feed on me, was a vampire.

Chapter Two

"Seba Nile"

I heard only a light whistle, as if something were slicing through the air, and then my captor's hand flew from me, and grasped frantically at his neck. He made a strange, choking noise as he withdrew a bloody shuriken, and starred dumbly at it for a moment. Blood flooded from the wound on his neck, and within seconds, he fell backward, dead.

It was as if both sides of the battle attacked at once. All the vampires sprang to their feet and drew weapons, and suddenly, three more figures sprang down from the trees, moving so quickly my bad eyes barely caught them. The little girl broke into tears again, and, having been dropped by the vampire who I assumed was Arkadiy, I crawled over to her and gathered her into my arms. Both of us were frightened beyond thought, and we did not know if these newcomers meant us good or ill, or even if they would triumph over the vampires. I turned to watch the fight, and saw two more of the six fall to the ground, dead. One of the others, a young stocky man who was using the shuriken and his hands only to defend himself, doubled over in pain, clutching his abdomen. The other two came and stood over their fallen alley, killing another two vampires in his defence. Now only one of the creatures remained, and he turned to run for the door, but one of the men caught him, and slammed him into the wall I sat against, not ten feet away from the little girl and myself. I recognised him as the one who had caught me in the Commons of La Chambre. The vampire met the man's gaze with reddened eyes, sneering at him contemptuously.

“Hello, Serge,” the man pinning him to the wall said, a deep hatred tainting his voice.

“You can’t kill me,” Serge laughed. “They’ll hunt you down. You’ll be bringing war down upon yourself!”

“Your kind want murderers dead just as badly as I,” said the man, then took his bare hand, and, shockingly, pierced deeply into the vampire’s abdomen. Still looking surprised, Serge slumped to the floor, dead.

Wiping his hand, the man who had killed Serge strode over to us. I had thought he might be hostile, but his face was kindly, and he cut the cords, which had sliced deeply into my wrists and ankles. Briskly, he ordered that I roll my pant-legs up and give him my wrists. Deciding to trust him, I obeyed. I was utterly disgusted when he proceeded to spit into his hand and rub it over my cuts, but then gasped as a slight stinging sensation heralded the disappearance of the raw bleeding skin. He had healed me!

“What are you?” I asked as he looked the little girl over, checking for any injuries. He did not answer me, only rushed back to his injured friend. I guessed that they were some sort of angels, though they were not beautiful, as most Christian women said the angels were. They were far from beautiful, in fact.

The other, who had long, unkempt black hair and a strong build, looked up to him and nodded, smiling, assuring him that the third was not badly injured. I watched as the injured one opened his shirt, so that both of them could rub spit into the cut. I could tell it had been fairly deep, perhaps not fatal but enough to put a grown man out of action for a few days. But this man was talking and laughing with the other two, who did not seem very concerned for him, and, with their help, he was sitting upright. Soon, the gash was no more that a rather tender looking pink scar.

Next to me, the child had stopped crying, and was surveying me with her red-rimmed grey eyes. I shrugged to myself, then held out my arms to her. After a moment, she rose and let me pick her up. She simply buried her face in my neck, seeming very tired. In a few minutes, she brought her head up to look at me, acting as if she’d slept all night.

“What’s you name?” she asked. She spoke well, surprisingly, but I had to conjure all I knew of English to understand her. Now, I guessed that she was about five or six years old, and just terribly small for her age.

“Larten,” I smiled, brushing a few stray locks out of her face. I was about to ask hers when she clambered down and ran over to the men, who were holding a quiet council amongst themselves. I almost laughed aloud as she pushed her way into their circle, acting as if it was all of her business to know their conversation. For a moment, they all looked down at her, their expression somewhat stunned as she stared boldly back at them. Then, they all laughed most heartily with one another, and they black-haired man, the most muscular and dangerous looking of the three, swept her up into his arms and sat her on his hip.

”Hello there, sweetheart,” he grinned, rather stupidly, I thought.

“I always knew Vanez was a born mother,” said the stocky one, who had a faint German accent. The other laughed. He seemed to be the oldest of the three; tall and thin, with light brown hair and features that did not denote that he smiled much. Slowly, I made may way over to them, wanting to be as unobtrusive as possible.

“What’s your name?” asked Vanez.

“My name’s Arra Sails, and that’s Larten,” she said, pointing to me. “I’m from London, but he’s not. He can’t speak English very well, I think.” Now we all laughed at her precocious manner, while she simply stared at us matter-of-factly.

“She is right,” I said, still laughing a bit. I was stumbling over my words and I figured my English was barely understandable. “I don’t know English so well.”

"I suppose you will have to learn, then," said the eldest. "But, for now, we must flee. Their kind may hunt us yet. Even though the vampaneze may be willing to let us slay murderers who don't bother to mark their victims, there are always radicals..."

"Vampaneze?" I repeated curiously, wondering if it was only a difference in our languages. "Does that mean vampire?" I asked.

"Most certainly not!" the man replied. He seemed almost offended. "We do have our pride, Larten. And, by the way, that is Vancha March," he said, motioning to the (previously) wounded man, who saluted me politly. "Vanez, whose name I think you already know," Vanez smiled and nodding, setting down little Arra. "And you may call me Seba. We here are true vampires, my young friend."

 
 
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Somatophylakes
23 December 2004 @ 11:18 am
The King and his Steward checked their steeds and dismounted, boots hitting the deep snow with dull thuds, loud next to the light bell-like tinkling of the falls. The Forbidden Pool itself was all but solid; only a small hole left where the icy water from the stream above fell to shatter the utter silence of the woods. It was a long ride back from Dol Amroth, where the cold came in bitter whips of salty wind off the Great Sea. The forest seemed equally bitter after such a hard ride, and even the horses were moving slowly by the time there masters led them into the shelter of Henneth Annun.

Aragorn and Faramir had wanted to come to Gondor by sundown, but the day was short and the dusk came on them suddenly. The Ranger's base in Ithilien was close at hand, thankfully, and by nightfall they had lit a fire using the supply of dry wood kept there, and had set some lentils to boil. Already, their tired horses were covered and resting; as they planned to be soon. They wondered if it would be acceptable to simply eat the lentils in bed. They were alone, with all Faramir’s men at the underground winter base some miles away, so they guessed no common manners were needed. Both knew of life in the wild, and both could well accommodate.

“It may be a while, yet,” said Aragorn, stirring the beans, which were still very hard. “The water freezes over every time it starts to boil.”

Faramir smiled at his King’s complaint. He removed his wet boots and spread his cloak out on the ground, covering it with his pallet. He sat down on it and put his feet near the fire, sighing with relief as the heat returned the feeling to his stiff limbs. Aragorn removed his own boots as well, setting them beside Faramir’s to dry. Taking out his bedroll, he pushed it up against Faramir’s and laid all their blankets out on it. Faramir watched him apprehensively. “We’ll sleep together, then?”

“Aye,” Aragorn nodded. “It’s best that we do. ‘Tis too cold for aught else.” He smiled, considering if he should speak. “Why so nervous? There is a tremor in your voice. I swear, I do not pester my bedmates over much.”

“It’s the cold,” Faramir said, drawing his cloak tighter about himself. “And, as I hear it, Lady Arwen says otherwise to my Éowyn."

“Does she?” Aragorn said, looking up from the fire, to which he was adding wood and kindling. “She never seemed to mind before; not the sort of pestering I give her, at any rate.”

Faramir might have blushed but for the chill that already showed upon his cheeks. It surprised him that the renowned King was so light in his speech. Faramir had spent very little time alone with Aragorn, the majority of their exchanges being of business, but he had learned much of him on their last few business trips to Dol Amroth.  He supposed that his strange feelings for his King was but a growing friendship, and found himself dismissing them often, now. Truth told, he did not mind the thought of bedding with this man, only it made his insides churn in the oddest way, and for a moment, he lost his breath over the idea.

“Are there any clothes we might sleep in?” Aragorn asked, pulling Faramir suddenly from his thoughts.

“Only some old nightshirts I brought,” he said. “The rest of our clothes are still soaked.”

“Iced, now, likely. I should start taxing everything Dol Amroth ships through Gondor, if they think it‘s so amusing to call the first council of the in the midst of Girithron,” Aragorn chuckled, pulling two worn cotton nightshirts from Faramir’s bag.

“That sounds like something my father would have done,” Faramir grumbled, almost inaudibly. “That one should fit you, if it isn‘t a little large.” Faramir pointed to the shirt Aragorn held in his right hand. “It was Boromir’s, before he left.”

Aragorn had heard the catch in Faramir’s voice as he spoke of Boromir, but when he looked up, Faramir seemed to have drowned it. He tossed Faramir the smaller of the two shirts, and then stripped down to his breechclout.

Breath quickening, Faramir followed suit, keeping one eye secretly fixed on Aragorn. It did not take much debate to convince himself that he looked only out of admiration for his leader. Under this pretence, he allowed himself to marvel at the other man’s almost godly body. Long, well-muscled legs found their apex where Faramir could not help but note a generous bulge, which surprised him, the weather being as it was. But, quickly checking himself from such perversions, he let his gaze drift over the defined abdomen and chest, marked here and there by silver scars, some jagged, some still showing a surgeon’s work, and then the tanned arms, made strong by years of wielding a blade, like his breast and stomach, marred in places by battle.

Suddenly, Aragorn caught his gaze, and Faramir was immediately aware of the growing hardness his breechclout barely hid. It would seem that Aragorn had seen this, as well, and they both donned the long shirts hastily.

Aragorn reprimanded himself harshly. He hoped Faramir had not noticed his staring, or its results, which now had made his breechclout rather uncomfortable. Of course, a glimpse he had caught told him that either Faramir shared his dilemma, or else was very, very well off. He swiftly ended that internal debate when he found that both possibilities made his drawers tighter. He turned away rather quickly and took two bowls and two spoons out of a saddlebag, then ladled out some lentils for them both. He felt he heart flutter a little as he climbed into bed along side the younger man, who had decided was indescribably attractive. He covered them both before eating.

The two shared the small meal silently, and then set the empty bowls aside, to be left until morning. An awkward moment followed then: neither seemed to want to lie down, or else would not.

Faramir was driven half mad by the feel of Aragorn’s heat so near to him, and again could feel his erection straining against the cloth containing it. Some rare insanity took him in an instant, and afterwards, he knew not what had made him so bold. At times, Aragorn would suggest with a smile that the beans may have gone to his head, but Faramir knew how attracted he had become to his lord since their meeting in the Houses.

Barely thinking, he leant over slowly and pressed his lips into Aragorn’s. He felt Aragorn gasp against him. It took no more than a second before he realised just what he was doing and made to pull away. Aragorn caught him as shame threatened to sweep his honour away, and pulled him closer, nearly into his lap. Faramir had broken the brief kiss, but Aragorn stilled the pending apology on his lips with his finger.

“Don’t stop,” he instructed firmly, holding the younger man close. “You’ve lit a fire in me now that cannot be quenched. If I ignore it, I may burn alive.”

Then, Faramir lost himself entirely to the passion in Aragorn’s eyes, and brought his palms up to rest on his companion’s heaving chest as they kissed heatedly. Aragorn groaned deeply as he was pushed backward onto the blankets. He could now feel Faramir’s burgeoning erection pressed into his hip, Faramir’s heart thrumming against his own.

Then, Faramir stalled again, but this time, he rolled off entirely. “Faramir?” Aragorn prompted gently, catching his breath. “What is it?”
    
Brow creased, Faramir shook his head. “We cannot do this, Aragorn we’re married men.”

“And only one of us is goodly enough to abstain from eavesdropping,” Aragorn added with a slight smile. Faramir looked up, as if suddenly intrigued. Aragorn continued. “Our wives have fantasies of their own, concerning us. If we return to them with a tale for the darker hours, they will be not only unconcerned by our promiscuity, but indebted to us.” He finished with a very mischievous grin, that Faramir recognised as one Boromir used to sport when talking of something he knew he was not meant to know. In a moment though, he gave in, and raised his arm to let Aragorn remove his nightshirt. He did the same to his lover, running his fingertip over every inch of skin he exposed. Aragorn lay back and stretched himself out on top of the coverlet, and Faramir reached for the ties to his breechclout. Faramir cast it aside leaving Aragorn completely disrobed, and he could not keep back a gasp.

The moonlight came through the falls in shuddering beams of silver, which played across Aragorn’s golden skin. These contrasted against the steadier glow of the fire. He could see the man’s measured breaths coming in clouds of vapour from the cold, but he had lost nothing to the temperature otherwise. He placed a hand on Aragorn’s stomach, and then let it slid downward, until his fingertips rested a hairbreadth away from the weeping tip of his lover’s cock. Then, teasingly he withdrew.

Aragorn opened his eyes and sat up, and soon had removed Faramir’s breechclout, as well. Faramir felt a rush of excitement as he watched Aragorn’s eyes upon him, simply staring at his most intimate places, and completely unashamed of his lust.

Faramir picked up the covers and wrapped them tightly about them both, then lay down with his King, pinning him underneath his own body. There cocks met with an electrifying shock, and they clasped hands and were content for a while to simply create that friction, nut soon, Faramir reached between them, with other motives in mind. He drew a deep moan from Aragorn as he swiped his thumb over the head of his cock, wiping away some of the pearly fluid gathered there. Then, pushing the other man’s legs apart and instructing him to draw them up to his chest, he slicked Aragorn tight entrance until, with great care, he could slid a finger in. Aragorn arched his hips as Faramir’s slender digit breached him, and had to hold onto his control to stay his release.

Faramir, having nothing to ease the way, stretched Aragorn well. Withdrawing his three fingers, he positioned himself to enter his lover. Aragorn cried out in sheer pleasure as Faramir pushed into him for the first time, and thrust upward, taking the other man deeper into himself. Faramir pulled himself out almost completely, before thrusting back in until his swollen, heated sac was pressed firmly into Aragorn. Aragorn nails dug into Faramir’s arms as the head of his cock found its mark inside him. Stars exploded behind him eyelids like the end of a galaxy, and he relinquished all control over his body to Faramir.

Faramir grasped Aragorn steel-hard cock, and fisted it almost roughly, drawing guttural cries from Aragorn. Aragorn raised his head and kissed Faramir, their tongues moving in time with Faramir’s thrust, increasing in intensity as they did.

Their cries crescendoed under a building wave of pleasure, until Aragorn spilled himself over Faramir’s hand. Driven over the edge as Aragorn’s already tight muscles seized up around his cock and bucked wildly into him, Faramir emptied himself deep within his lover, crying out Aragorn’s name as he spent his passion.

They collapsed breathlessly alongside one another, holding each other until they had each rested themselves. Sleepily, Aragorn turned in Faramir’s embrace, now feeling much warmer and quite content.

“Perhaps,“ Faramir yawned, nestling his face into Aragorn’s hair. “We might do this again.“

Aragorn smiled, shutting his eyes. “Aye,“ he whispered gently. “We might.“

Outside, the waterfall had become a smaller flow now, as the stream above froze over, and a dense snowfall had begun against the black night sky. They watched it until sleep took them, and, come morning, each thought it might have been no more than a dream

Arcane, though, the knowledge lingered in both men, the King and his Steward, that the feeling evoked by the memory of that cold night they spent had together, painted by snowfall and moonlight, was far too perfect to have been imagined.


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Somatophylakes
22 December 2004 @ 11:02 pm

When Strider had finished tending his own wounds, he turned his attention back to Frodo, sending the others off to the few hours of rest left to them. In those few hours, the sky began to lighten very slightly, and birdsong gradually surrounded the grove. Though his eyes had grown tired and he could hardly uphold his head, he sat at Frodo’s side through the entire night, bathing the little hobbit’s hurt and, occasionally, his own. He’d kept a keen watch for danger, but as the dawn closed in on Middle-earth, his fear lessened and he allowed himself to lie down next to Frodo. Frodo’s eyes were half-lidded with weariness, but he continued to gasp for air, quietly, feebly. Another wave of nausea and dizziness overcame him, and Strider felt as if he could not rise. Within mere seconds, he had drifted into a light sleep.

They are coming for him...”

The crimson pool that surrounded Amras‘s corpse darkened, deepened. In Strider‘s arms lay Frodo, his wide eyes as milky orbs stared blankly at him, still pleading for a release from the suffering.

They are here.”

The growing daylight filtering through the dense canopy above Strider came as a shock to his eyes. Sweat was dripping in beads down his cheeks, and the coldness of it was sickening. He was surprised to find his doublet undone, and Pippin bent over him, gently wiping blood from his side. He sat up, with some difficulty.

“Pippin, what are you doing?” he asked, his voice coming out more weakly than he’d expected.

“Well, I suppose that someone must take care of the caretaker every now and again,” he whispered. He saw Strider glance towards Frodo. “He’s been sleeping right peacefully, I’d say. But, if I may be so bold-”

Merry, who had only just risen, rolled his eyes. “You’ve never needed anyone’s permission before.”

Pippin continued, ignoring Merry. “Every time you’d shift the slightest bit away he’d get restless. I think he likes you.” Pippin gestured to Sam. “Now, him - he’s been tossing and turning all night. Can’t sleep when his Frodo’s hurt, that Sam.”

Sam was crouched by the fire, carefully tending the small flames back to a blaze. “I went and got more water. I figured Mr. Strider lost enough rest already.”

“Thank you, Sam,” said Strider as he got to his feet. He took a deep steadying breath, trying to ignore his loss of energy. Carefully, he bent down and brushed his hand over Frodo’s cool, damp brow. Frodo woke slowly, and his reddened eyes stayed half-lidded. Sam already had the water bubbling, and Strider bathed Frodo’s shoulder thoroughly. As he gently prodded the area with his fingertips, he noticed slight swelling nearer to the right side of Frodo‘s breast. Using only the pads of his thumbs, Strider pressed lightly upon Frodo’s skin to see if he could find what had caused it. Frodo moaned in pain at this pressure, eyes widening hysterically. Strider immediately pulled away, laying a hand upon Frodo’s brow. “Hush, Frodo,” he soothed. “Take a deep breath.” Frodo turned his head this way and that, as if trying to find more contact from Strider's hand

He turned to look at the others. Merry and Pippin were trying to reassure poor Sam, whose eyes were brimming with tears. They all looked tired and hungry, and Strider regretted having to push them onward. “Come,” he said, his voice as clear as he could make it. “We shall have to go on soon.” From his satchel he took the last of his apples, and gave three of them to the hobbits. When Sam saw Strider bite into the fourth, he immediately felt spiteful. He’d almost expected Strider to give it to Frodo. He was about to help Frodo eat the apple Strider had thrown to him, when suddenly, the man bent down and gently opened Frodo’s mouth. Sam nearly gasped when Strider pressed his lips to Frodo’s. He looked to Merry, who was viewing this strange spectacle with equal confusion. However, Pippin was smiling admiringly.

“Well that makes sense,” said Pippin, seeing Sam and Merry’s disapproving reaction. “I would have thought that you of all hobbits, Sam, would have seen a mother bird feeding her young.”

Sam understood, then. Frodo looked too delirious to move a muscle, and he might have choked trying to eat a hard piece of apple. Strider wasn’t all that bad, come to think of it. Resourceful, at the least.

Merry still seemed bemused. “Are you suggesting that Strider’s a mother bird and Frodo’s his baby? You’re out of your bloody mind, Pip.”

Strider continued until the apple was half eaten, and took a single bite for himself, to knock the edge off his hunger. He took the last clean rag left in his haversack and soaked it in the clean water Sam had brought, then wrapped the remainder of the apple in it.

Merry and Pippin gathered all their gear and Sam extinguished the fire, watching as Strider carefully readied Frodo for another long march held in his arms.

“Will yoube alright?“asked Sam, seeing Strider involuntarily clutch at the gash on his side.

He managed a smile. “If I’m not dead, I’ll tell you that I’m well.“Holding his breath to keep from voicing the cold pain in his side, Strider picked up Frodo and rose to his feet. Once he’d started walking, the pain became easier, or else had gone numb, but either helped him to keep a quick gait. The hobbits had no trouble keeping up today, after having rested and eaten, and they were driven by need love for Frodo.

The day passed quickly, driven onward by lack of time, no doubt. By evening, Strider was fairly surprised at the hobbits' lack of complaint. Knowing that they were growing hungry and surpassingly weary, he slowed and looked around for a place they might rest.

Once having caught his breath, Pippin moved forward with unquenchable curiosity, for, though they climbed steadily upward through the hilly terrain, the woodland had grown thicker and darker. Sam and Strider both saw the look on Merry's face that denoted that he had a bad feeling about something. He knew Pippin so well, that he always seemed to anticipate his other half's predicaments. Tension mounted in an odd manner, with the silence becoming increasingly ominous. Strider was about to call out for Pippin to come back, when a loud yelp of fear made everyone start.

Strider quickly got a better hold on Frodo and ran forward, recognising Pippin's voice immediately. The cry led him to a dark glade, and Pippin, fleeing from some terror, collided heavily with his legs and held on as if for his life. Reflexively, Strider's hand was ready upon his sword, but upon identifying the young hobbit's assailant he burst into laughter. The others followed closely behind him, but had not noticed yet what had amused there guide so.

Wordlessly, the Dunedain laid Frodo's body on the ground, where the halfling blended as blue-green shadows cast by the fading daylight on the leafy ceiling dappled and played upon his pale features. Just as the others entered the glade and became stricken, as Pippin had, Strider took a stick from the ground and gave the figure nearest him a sound rap on the head. The great troll did not move, but only sat there, expression captured in a moment of surprise, graven in stone.

After this display, everyone allowed themselves a little nervous laughter, even Pippin, who still seemed a bit shaken. Strider had meant to begin preparing a bit of food for the hobbits, but a sudden chill assailed him. The chill soon became an odd, sickening dizziness, and the dizziness became blindness, and then he felt nothing.

Strider knew not how long it was until he woke. Pippin and Merry were bent over him, their faces pictures of fright. “Sam! Sam, he’s awake!” Pippin yelled happily. Strider tried to sit up, and soon found a hobbit behind each of his shoulders, helping him.

“We were worried!” Merry said, seeming very relieved. “You went deathly pale, and then you just...”

“Fell over,” added a very soft, but very familiar voice.

Strider looked, and there was Frodo, still sickly and prone upon the ground, but awake, and capable of speech. Strider thought he’d never feel so thankful again. “Frodo!” he cried. “When did you find it in you to wake?”

“It’s a wonder,” said Sam. “I found some spare food I’d brought from Bree, and cooked it up for supper, as I didn’t want it going bad, and we figured you and Mr. Frodo would need a bit of victuals, in your states. And would you believe, he comes to soon as he can smell it!”

“It’s no mystery, really,” Pippin said, looking at Strider. “Everybody knows food will cure a hobbit better than anything will.”

Soon after, Sam had finished the cooking, and they all ate as they hadn’t in a while. Frodo even managed to take a bit of the stew Sam had concocted, slouched in Strider’s lap, as he could not keep himself upright. The others had seated themselves in a small circle on the other side of the fire, and so Strider could converse quietly with Frodo, keeping him conscious.

“Please don’t tell Sam,” Frodo began. “But I think I may have gone blind. I can see nothing, but for a faint glow about you.”

Strider understood immediately, but felt it appropriate to press the matter. “Why do you look toward us when you speak, if you cannot see where we are?”

“I have another sense, I think.” Frodo sounded as if he was losing his breath again, and his voice grew quieter. “But it’s wrong somehow. I didn’t have it before, and I feel afraid to use it. It doesn‘t feel quite natural.”

“You’re not going blind, Frodo,” Strider assured him, helping him to finish the last of the stew. “But the Shadow has come over your eyes. I fear only the Lord Elrond can heal you now.”

“But why is it I can see you?” he asked, almost inaudibly. “Why do I see you as light?”

“It may be that the blood of the elves is still in my veins, however slight. Listen to me Frodo, you’re beginning to see as they see, to sense as they sense. That is what you must fight, if you can.” Frodo was nearly unconscious again, but Strider kept speaking, hoping to be heard. “You know who, and what you are Frodo. And if that is not enough, then I know you. You are already a hero in my eyes, Frodo, no matter what happens after this.” He held Frodo closer still, and slipped a hand into the Halfling’s shirt and laid it upon the cut, barely able to endure the cold of the poison gathered about it. “Remember who you are, Frodo. It is all that can now protect you, now. Remember who you are.”

“Aragorn,” Frodo said quietly, briefly grasping at the hem of Strider’s jerkin. Then, his fingers went limp and he relaxed entirely into Strider’s embrace.

Carefully, Aragorn laid Frodo back onto the pallet, praying to the Valar that the hobbit would sleep with no trouble, and that he would wake again, come morning.

An hour passed, and all light faded from the distant horizon. The glow of the fire was isolated to the glade; beyond that, all was dark. Strider could feel his condition worsening, but he kept a vigilant watch while the hobbits, who had cared for him, took some rest. Frodo had fallen into a fitful sleep, sometime shivering with cold, sometimes murmuring fearfully. But, when this would happen, Strider would rise and limp over from his post, and lay his hands upon the wound and upon Frodo’s brow. This seemed to help less every time, for Frodo’s health was waning, and Strider, too, was beginning to feel the cold.

Late in the night, sometime near the chilled dawn, Strider began to doze. The sickness was creeping upon him again: his eyes were dimming and his breathing was troubled. Then, with no warning, a scream like one out of hell rent the still air. Strider leapt to his feet and drew his sword, prepared to die defending the hobbits if there was another attack. He looked to see Sam, Merry, and Pippin rising as well, searching the darkness for the source of the sound. Strider bothered the embers until the fire had caught again, and threw some dry kindling atop to set the blaze. Just before the glade was lit, the unearthly scream came again, though it was now softer, weaker. It was Sam who first realised what the sound came from. Strider’s eyes followed him to Frodo, whose eyes were wide open, but unseeing, their deep azure reduced to a pale blue, as if they had turned to ice. On his white face a cold sweat had beaded, dampening his curls and making them cling to his brow. He was practically writhing upon the ground from pain, clawing at his left shoulder as if to rip the poison from his body. Strider joined Sam at his side, and took hold of Frodo’s arms, restraining him. Frodo struggled frantically, but Strider kept a firm hold. It seemed to need an eternity before Frodo lay still. Strider left his side for a moment, tired, and barely able to think on what was to be done next. Then, Frodo cried out again, louder, almost as if he was calling for someone. He was answered.

Not far away, the eerie moaning of the Riders could be heard, as if brought to their ears on a foul wind. Frodo could hear them, too, and he turned his head to and fro as if he heard words that the others could not catch. Strider gathered several broken limbs and set them alight, giving one to Pippin and one to Merry, and quickly searching the surrounding brush using his own. Sam leant down, stroking his master’s brow feverishly. “Look, Frodo,“he said, glancing upward. “It’s Mr. Bilbo’s trolls.” Frodo looked not to hear him, but cast a desperate gaze upon his friend, begging for help. Sam laid his palm across Frodo’s chilled skin. He turned to Strider, who was clutching his side while preparing the others for an attack. “He’s goin’ cold!” Sam exclaimed, near tears.

Pippin and Merry stood around Frodo as well, ready to protect him. Pippin looked to Strider, frightened. “Is he going to die?”

Strider saw Sam and Merry cringe as Pippin voiced their worst fears, but told them the truth of the matter. “He is passing into the Shadow-world. He’ll soon become a Wraith like them.”

As he said this, another shrill cry of Frodo’s gained an answer out of the darkness, and deep forest shadow began to move. The air was vibrating.

“They’re close,” Merry said, looking around, expecting to see the tall, black figures at any moment. Pippin drew closer to his older cousin, trembling at his words.

Strider decided then that they must move onward that night. The Nine had nearly found them out, and he was in no condition to protect the hobbits. But something would have to be done before Frodo could move on, and he was without supplies. “Sam,” he called, and Sam tore himself reluctantly from Frodo, letting go of his master’s hand with a quiet prayer. “Do you know the athelas plant?” he asked urgently, recalling that Sam enjoyed gardening.

“Athelas?” Sam mimicked, clearly at a loss.

Strider thought quickly, though his frustration was growing. “Kingsfoil,” he prompted, remembering the name some knew the plant by in Bree.

“Kingsfoil!” said Sam, understanding. “Aye, it’s a weed.”

Strider took no time to explain that this plant was far from being a weed. “It may help to slow the poison. Come!” He thrust a torch into Sam’s hand and led him into the night.

Sam’s stomach churned with fear as he stepped out of the thicket, where the brush was too dense for his torch to provide enough light, so he stayed close to Strider as he searched for the uncommon weed he had spoken of. Vigilant, he pressed on, reminding himself that it was for Frodo.

Aragorn felt as if he’d found a mountain of gold as he ran across a large cluster of athelas, winding around the base of a thorn-bush. Drawing out his hunting knife, he cut a few sprigs, and was about to call to Sam, when sharp, cold steel touched his neck.

For a split second, he knew his life to be over, and he made to yell to Sam to run back to camp, but he realised that he felt none of the deathly air that gathered about the Wraiths, but a pleasant sensation, that made him think of home.

"What's this?" rang the silver-toned voice. "A ranger, caught off guard?"

His fortunes looked up as he did, to find an Elf-maiden staring down at him, sporting a half-smile made for mischief. He stood as quickly as he was able and embraced Arwen. As they broke away, she looked down to her hand, which she's rested on his side, and gasped. She rubbed the cold blackened blood between her fingers and looked to her lover, eyes agleam with fear. Aragorn only shook his head. “Go,” he told her.

Minutes later, Strider listened intently as the quickening thrum of Asfaloth’s hooves receded into the dimness. Somewhere nearby, the howl of a Rider sounder, and he felt his heart bleed for Frodo and his love. He feared they might not reach Rivendell.

“What are you doing?” raged Sam, horrified at being so suddenly separated from his master. “Those Wraiths are still out there!”

Strider took a moment, then turned and gathered the hobbits to him as the haunting sounds drew closer. “If any of us can protect Frodo, she can, Sam. Light more torches, quickly!”

Rustles began in the bushes, and soon a cold fog rolled over the ground. Blood spilt from the cut on Aragorn’s side with each beat of his heart, and the night grew darker. Though sounds were becoming fainter, Aragorn could hear Pippin crying softly now. He mustered his remaining strength and will as a black horse stepped into the glen, and covered the hobbits with his body. The remaining four spectres emerged from the forest beyond, and they raised their blades, ready to kill.

“Run,” Aragorn said softly. “Don’t stop.”

“But-” came Pippin’s frightened voice.

“Go!” Aragorn roared. A Rider made to go after the halflings as they fled, but Aragorn took up a brand and his blade, wielding both before the Wraith, and it’s steed reared upward, whinnying frantically. One heavy hoof caught Aragorn’s shoulder, and he was thrown backward with a cry. Desperately trying to stand, he encountered a sharp pain in the back of his thigh. Gasping, he withdrew part of a splintered branch and threw it aside.

He looked up. Towering over him was the Witchking, blade drawn back to strike, and take for a prize the last King of Men, the last man Sauron feared.

They hated one another in that instant; Aragorn and the Lord of the Nine. Aragorn was the one King that Sauron would rather have beneath his power that he, and he was jealous of this. Or perhaps he was reminded of what he once had been, high and noble...pure. And the Witchking had been the one to stab Frodo. Frodo, who Aragorn had grown to love more than his own life. Now there was nothing Aragorn could do to avenge this.

Aragorn tightened his fingers around his blade and shut his eyes. But, just before falling into oblivion, he thought he heard the beating of hooves on the ground, the falls of lightly running feet. Faintly now came the angry cry of a Nazgûl, and through his closed eyes he saw a final burst of silver light.

 

 
 
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Somatophylakes
22 December 2004 @ 10:59 pm

When morning came, the hobbits found it as miserable and wet as the day before, though now it seemed a little warmer. Frodo awoke suddenly to the faint greyness preceding dawn, but could not will himself to rise until it became absolutely necessary. It seemed he had only just gotten warm, and he buried himself deep into the folds of his cover. Strider’s firm footfalls drew near, and a gentle hand was laid on Frodo’s back. It shook him, just enough to bring him to wakefulness. Frodo stretched and enjoyed his last moment of warmth, then rose and reached for his jacket, which he had been using to cover his feet. He huddled into it and went to sit down by the weak fire Strider had managed to start, next to Merry. Pippin and Sam were still asleep. Merry was eating an apple, which Frodo stared at, trying to rouse his appetite, but he blanched visibly at he very thought of food. Strider, having woken Sam and lightly kicked Pippin (as everyone knew very well was what Pippin needed at this time of the morning), took his seat at Frodo’s side, half an apple in his hand. He drew a hunting knife from his belt, and with it cut a small piece from the apple. He held it out towards Frodo.

“Here,” he encouraged. “It’s been a full day since you’ve taken any food. You should have something.”

Frodo looked at it for a moment, trying to convince himself that he was hungry, but eventually just shook his head. Strider turned away, shrugging. He tossed the bit of apple into the fire. Frodo noticed, but before he could protest, he saw Strider’s eyes upon him, and the smile on the man’s normally stern features.

“I’m not planning to eat until you do,” he remarked in a manner Frodo almost thought cheeky. How odd it sounded coming from Strider! It made him laugh after a moment.

“Fine, then,” he said, and accepted a larger piece of the apple Strider cut for him. “Thank you.” Sometime after the first few bites he took, his stomachache went away, and he realised that he had been quite hungry.

They continued their march after that, at no less of a pace, and within the hour of climbing steadily, they had reached higher ground. Spirits lightened considerably at the prospect of leaving the cold marshland behind, but Strider only grew more restless. Questions and concerns plagued him like a disease. Where was Gandalf? He had never known anything serious enough to make the Wizard break such a necessary meeting, especially when someone was desperately depending upon him. And the Wraiths...where were they? Surely, they too would make for Amon Sûl, but, in that case, so would Gandalf. If he had to choose between risking an attack by the nine and risking missing Gandalf...

The sight of the hills before him silenced his thoughts. His mind returned to navigating the most traversable path through them - something he had not bothered to worry about since he was in his twenties. He soon came upon an area of flatland that he could not recall. So accustomed was he to travelling alone that he stopped abruptly, without thinking. Not a moment later something bumped his backside heavily, followed by a small umph! Startled, he turned, but only encountered Frodo, prone upon the ground, just as surprised as he himself was. Instinctively, he extended his hand to help him up, which Frodo took with slight hesitation.

“I’m sorry,” he stuttered, brushing mud and grass from his clothes. “I wasn’t looking where I was going...”

Strider shook his head. “That was my fault. I ought not stop dead in my tracks when people are walking behind me.”

“I was just a bit distracted...”

Strider and Frodo looked downward simultaneously and noticed that they had not yet let go of one another’s hands. Gasping, they both jerked away from the other. Frodo thought he might have enjoyed the feel of holding Strider’s hand a little too much for comfort. He turned away from his embarrassment, blushing deeply, only to find his three companions staring confusedly at him.

Not long after, as Strider led the hobbits around a tall hillock, Weathertop loomed into view. It stood silent; a ruined monolith of a kingdom long dead. It had been a long while since Strider had come to it, for whatever reason, and a strange feeling of nostalgia bore over him at the stoic image of the watchtower.

“This was the great watchtower of Amon Sûl,” he said wistfully to himself. He turned back to the others, who stood, waiting patiently for his direction. “We shall rest here tonight.” He listened to the few sighs of relief from the hobbits. Who were tired and, inevitably, hungry.

They found that the hill was traversable, once Strider had located the path that led to a man-made overhang near the summit. This would serve as their shelter.

As they made their way upward, Frodo’s spirits plummeted heavily. Though no one said anything of it, fear and concern was written on every face. Gandalf was not there. Something was terribly wrong.

“These are for you,” said Strider, handing the hobbits the little blades he’d been carrying. “Keep them close.” He watched the hobbits for a moment, and saw that they were awkward with the weight of the short swords. He made a mental note to find some time to train them before they would have need of skill in battle. “I’m going to have a look around,” he informed them. “Stay here.” He caught Frodo’s look of discomfort, and smiled reassuringly before leaving them. He descended the hill quickly, then disappeared into the brush.

Strider had walked a half-mile when the sun went down. As the shades of evening deepened, he picked up a broken dead limb of the appropriate size and shape, and took from his belt an oilskin. He drew the oil-soaked cloth from it and bound it firmly about the wood, then struck flint against tinder and set it alight. The torch didn’t seem to penetrate the darkness as it should have, as if its light was somehow quelled.

He made his way steadily to higher, dry ground, his boots encrusted with mud from travelling in drowned valleys. He was searching for Glorfindel, whose coming Arwen had told him of, for they needed the Elf lord’s guidance and protection at present. Though Aragorn did not much doubt his skill in battle, he knew that he could not take on any number of the Nine alone. He needed Glorfindel’s help in protecting the hobbits, Frodo especially. If the Nine were to take from Frodo what he secretly carried...Aragorn shuddered.

Suddenly, a pungent odour hit him like a wave. He stumbled as he realised with a lurch of his stomach that it was the smell of one dead. He went forward a ways, and as he turned a corner of the natural hedgerow at his side, he fell back with a soft, sickened cry. He dropped the torch onto the path, where the grass began to smoulder beneath it. Before Aragorn lay Amras, one leg trapped beneath his maimed horse. His wide, pale eyes stared up blankly at Aragorn, dim moonlight reflected eerily in them. Dried upon his cheek was a dark trail of blood from his mouth, gaping wide in a terrible scream.

Aragorn eventually felt his heart resume its rhythm, and suddenly tears began to stream from his eyes unchecked. Amras had been a noble man, and a beloved friend to him. To see his fair face stilled in such horrific agony...

Aragorn rose from the muddy ground, and reached out to Amras, gently shutting the man’s eyes. He pulled Amras’s cloak from under his stiff form and wrapped him in it, covering his face, and carefully freed him from the weight of the dead animal. Numbly, Aragorn dragged the other ranger to the base of a small tree and laid him there, offering a final blessing. His vision skewed by tears, he turned away, refusing to look back. The oil on the torch continued to burn, and he picked it up and stamped upon the glowing tendrils of grass. Aragorn broke into a swift run, now more cautious than ever he had been, feeling the dangers and fears begin to close in around him.

He crested the small hill that sat dwarfed at the sprawling base of Amon Sûl, and let himself slide down its gravelled side. A thick fog had pooled in the dell below, making it impossible to see where Weathertop’s path began. Out of instinct, he knelt down and swept his hand through the mist, clearing it long enough for the imprint of an iron-shod foot to be illuminated in the torch-light, and then others similar, leading towards the climbing path. Though the ground was soaked with rainwater, none had yet collected in the depression left in the mud. It had been made not minutes before.

A sudden ring of steel clashing with steel sounded from the summit of the hill, and Aragorn sped off toward the noises. Now, he could hear the hobbits terrified yells, and suddenly, a scream rent the air. Aragorn nearly crumpled to the ground as it ripped throughout his person, but, determined to reach the hobbits, he diligently kept his footing and ran on. There were other stranger noises, as well, that sounded as if they were coming from far beneath the ground; eerie words of a black language he did not know. He reached the wide summit, and as one hooded figure turned and raised his blade, Aragorn drew his own sword and countered the attack with great skill. He waved his torch before him, and his enemy cowered at its light. As he fought, he sought out each of the hobbits, but found only three. The other four Wraiths all stood in one place, not noticing his attack, and he knew that he’d found Frodo. Then, their leader drew back his blade, and drove it downward with terrible force. Frodo’s agonised scream filled Aragorn’s ears, or his mind, rather. The Wraiths had not finished their cruel work yet: Frodo still had the Ring, but whether he was alive or not was still to be determined.

Aragorn dodged the next blow from his opponent and sprang away, overborne by rage at the thought of pain inflicted upon Frodo. Heedlessly, he threw himself into the midst of the fray, driving his enemy back with fire and sword. Moments later, he came close to being relieved at the sound of Frodo’s completely audible cry. If he had taken off the Ring, he would no longer be as vulnerable. As Aragorn turned his head to see that Sam had gotten safely to Frodo’s side, one of the Morgul blades cut into his side. With an enraged growl, he drove the Wraith that had attacked him off the edge of the flat summit. He was forced to pause as pain coursed through his being.

Three other of the hooded figures had fled, receding back into the starless darkness, but one remained, poised for a second attack. Aragorn’s back was toward his enemy, but he felt the Wraiths presence better than any other sense would allow. He turned only as he let the torch fly from his hand. The brand embedded itself in the spectral face of the Nagûl. With another sickening screech, it, too, fled.

“Strider!” Sam’s shout was desperate. Aragorn rushed to the hobbits, and they quickly cleared a space for him at Frodo’s side. He picked up the knife that had fallen at Frodo’s side. “He has been stabbed by a Morgul blade,” Aragorn said breathlessly, his own side growing cold. He threw the hilt to the ground in disgust as it disintegrated into a foul breeze. His pain was nearly forgotten as he looked down at Frodo‘s pale face, still harbouring an expression of shock. “This is beyond my skill to heal,” he said as he lifted Frodo arduously from the ground. “He needs Elvish medicine.”

Leading them down to the outcropping where they’d made camp, he helped them gather their things with all possible speed. “Are any of you hurt?” he asked, helping Pippin on with his haversack. The three hobbits shook their heads in negation. “Good,” said Strider. “Come, now. Quickly!”

Even in the blind dark Strider knew his way through the forests in this land. Despite his wound, which he did not mention, he kept a gruelling pace. “We’re six days from Rivendell!” Sam yelled as he ran. “He’ll never make it!”

Strider did not respond. He could not. He knew that the possibilities of Frodo reaching Rivendell were small, if at all existent. Already, the little hobbit was incoherent, crying for Gandalf, crying in pain for help. “Hold on, Frodo.“There was a catch in Strider’s voice.

For nearly two hours they continued, the hobbits dutifully running along behind their guide, and Strider carrying a delirious Frodo over one shoulder. He stopped only when he heard one of the hobbits fall to the ground behind him. He halted and turned to see Merry and Sam, who looked ready to collapse themselves, helping Pippin up from his hands and knees. He fell back, taking them now at a slower walk, and placed his free hand on Pippin’s back. “I’m sorry,” he said quietly, “but I had to get you all as far away from them as possible. You know what they want.” Pippin nodded shakily. “And now you know how far they’re willing to go to obtain what they want. They will kill every one of us without hesitation if they find us.”

He led them into a patch of dense underbrush, careful with his charge. The thicket soon opened up to a clearing, and to the hobbits it seemed like to a small room, with four high, vine-covered walls. Strider laid Frodo down on a bed of moss and soft loam, removing the hobbit’s weskit and shirt. The wound he exposed was deep and bleeding heavily, and dark veins had surfaced around it. He removed his warm cloak to cover the shivering hobbit. He opened the pouch at his side, but found only three leaves of athelas left to him. They had withered and dried, and so he resolved to boil them to salvage any virtue left in them.

“Sam,” he said softly. In a moment, Sam was at his side, desperate to help his injured master. “Lend me one of your pots. I need you and the others to stay here and watch over Frodo. Do any of you carry flint and tinder?”

Sam nodded as he took his pack from his shoulder and detached one of his pots from it. He handed it to Strider, nodding. “I do.”

“Good, get a fire going, Sam. I’ll return shortly. Stay here.”

Sam complied, not voicing his fear of another attack while they were alone. When Strider had gone, he turned to Merry and Pippin. “Help me find some wood and stones, if you will,” he requested, and they set to work building a fire, making sure it would not create much smoke. Sam couldn’t seem to stop glancing back worriedly at Frodo, who was still gasping for air and choking on pained sobs.

Once the precious dry branches they’d gathered had caught, he went and seated himself close to his master. “Mr. Frodo,” he whispered soothingly. He took Frodo’s cold left hand in his own warm one, and he flinched at the feel of it. Frodo’s skin felt so lifeless, like he’d already...Sam could not so much as bear to think the word. “Mr. Frodo, can you hear me?” Merry and Pippin looked on with tears in their eyes at Sam, whose voice was cracking with sadness. Frodo responded only with a despondent look into Sam’s hazel eyes, as if to say he was sorry. Sam looked back into Frodo’s eyes, and restrained the cries of despair from bursting from his aching throat. Frodo’s beautiful sapphire eyes were red-rimmed and bloodshot, the colours in them shone with unearthly light, like blue flame. Sam shook his head. “You’re not givin’ up,” he said, brushing sweat-soaked curls from Frodo’s brow. He lowered his voice to whisper. “I can’t explain it, but something inside me’s saying that you’ve got something more to do before...the end, and so do I. This ain’t your time,” he wept.

Pain assailed Frodo’s body, and he shut his eyes against the bright light above him. The night was nearly dark enough save the moon and stars bearing down over him, but the fire burning next to him was like staring into the Sun. Strangely, it seemed that the black veil cast over the light and the world was the real source of the pain, though he was thankful for what he thought it to be doing. The pain became bearable again in a few moments, and he could open his eyes. Sam’s gentle face was above him, and though he could hear his friends voice he could find no words. All he could do was look to Sam, for any amount of strength. Sam was giving it, working like mad to pass some of it on to Frodo, but it was beyond Frodo to reach it. He could feel the barrier between himself and the living world growing by the minute, as if a skin of cruel armour thickening around him. It was enclosing him, suffocating him. It was killing him.

The sound of running water caught Strider’s sharp ears. He limped toward it, remembering the stream from his journey to Bree. Once he’d reached the water’s edge he leant down and filled the pot to capacity. Even in the night he could see the dark tinge clouding the water, as blood dripped down from his side. Though he was growing dizzy, he knew that Frodo’s hurt was worse and far more dangerous. Diligently, he got to his feet and started back to toward the glade.

Sam stood and reached for his sword as he heard the footsteps approaching, but relaxed when Strider emerged from the thicket at his right. “Put your blade away, Master Gamgee.“he said, trying to catch his breath through clenched teeth. “I am no enemy of yours.”

Sam now noticed the man’s limp, which had worsened on his way back. Strider set the pot in the fire, keeping the handle safely away from the flames. “Strider, you’re hurt,” Sam said, concerned.

Strider smiled, but Sam saw the pain concealed beneath the gesture. “You have had a change of heart, Master Gamgee.”

“You would have died saving him,” Sam said quietly. “I’d trust anyone that’d do that.”

“Thank you, Sam. Having your trust is greatly treasured.” He dropped his voice, so that Sam did not hear it.

“It makes me feel much safer, not having you out for my blood.” He took an old, soft cloth from his pack and unfolded it, then dipped it in the warm water.

“That won’t help, will it?” Sam asked. “The water ain’t even near boiled:”

“No, it isn’t, but until the water is hot enough to clean the wound this will do to soothe the pain.” He uncovered Frodo’s maimed shoulder and dabbed around the injury gently. Frodo tried to pull away as Strider pressed the warm cloth into the wound itself, but Strider persisted, slipping a hand under Frodo’s blood-stained shirt and rubbing his cold chest to assuage the pain. Frodo relaxed, and succumbed to Strider’s touch. By the time Strider felt he had sufficiently calmed Frodo, the water was beginning to boil. He gathered the last of his athelas leaves and crushed them, then dropped them into the pot. A sweet aroma instantly filled the air, and the others who were unhurt suddenly felt less weary. Though Sam did his best to solace his friend, holding his hand near his own face, Frodo groaned though clenched teeth as Strider placed the steaming cloth over the stab-wound, letting it bleed freely.

“He’ll bleed to death!” cried Sam.

Strider lifted the cloth slightly, and Sam saw that Frodo’s blood had become marbled with a strange blackness. “This may serve to flush out some of the poison,” said Strider. “And if he does die, then it will be a mercy for him to bleed to death rather than remain with this sickened blood flowing in his veins.”

Though grief-stricken, Sam nodded in agreement as he brushed his hand over Frodo’s cheek.

Once Frodo was used to the heat of the water, he quieted, and his breathing became easier. Weakened by loss of blood, he ceased to struggle when pained. When the blood flowed red again, Strider laid his hand over the wound. Several minutes passed, and, somehow, Frodo's wild, bloodshot eyes steadied. He even gave Sam’s hand a little squeeze, which brought Sam an insurmountable wave of new hope. “Look! He’s not hurting so bad anymore! What do you suppose...”

“Strider, of course! I never did doubt he could work such a miracle,” exclaimed Merry, smiling.

“No, the leaf, mostly,” Strider corrected good-naturedly. “And that will soon wear off, unfortunately. If you will, Sam, bathe that wound for me.”

Sam nodded, obviously happy to comply. Strider was glad that the others had directed all their attention towards Frodo as he gingerly removed his leather jerkin and unbuttoned the doublet beneath it. The gash on his side looked worse than what was on Frodo’s shoulder, but Strider could only imagine how bearing the Ring would worsen the effects he was beginning to feel. Also, he remembered the odd swelling on Frodo's chest, and how it had pained the hobbit so. He feared greatly that a shard of the blade had embedded itself within Frodo, but he realised that he could do nothing for it at present. They would have to hasten onward to Rivendell, and he and the hobbits would have to bear the toil, and Frodo would have to bear the delay.

Taking another clean cloth from his bag, he dipped it into the steaming water and applied it to his injury, brow knitting in pain. Distracted as he was, he did not notice Pippin’s quiet approach.

“Oh!” gasped the young hobbit. “Strider, you’re hurt.” Pippin was confused. “Why aren’t you as bad off as Frodo?”

“Sauron’s evil was already at work in Frodo’s body,” Strider said, mentioning nothing of his suspicions.

Pippin glanced worriedly at his cousin, then leant down and picked up Strider’s worn jerkin, studying it absently. “I don’t know how you’ve managed to ignore that, running all this way, carrying Frodo and all. It must be quite painful.”

Strider wet the cloth again. “I suppose I’ve learned to ignore it, after so many years...ouch.” He winced as he touched the cloth to his injury. Pippin grinned.

 
 
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Somatophylakes
22 December 2004 @ 10:57 pm

Hearing Frodo’s soft snores resume behind him, Strider pulled forth from his shirt pocket the bit of parchment he had hidden so quickly at the sound of Frodo’s voice. He’d held it so often that now it was like to silk from his constant fingering of it, and it was on the verge of tearing at the soft creases. He unfolded it to view Arwen’s flowing script, and the words that he kept close to his heart. Memories filled his mind, shifting from one to another, until his thoughts turned to receiving this treasured missive, only a day ago.

They are coming for him, Aragorn,” whispered Hador urgently, as he and Aragorn slipped through a backdoor at the end of the hall. The diminished voices of those in The Pony’s common room were suddenly silenced as Aragorn shut the door gently behind him and turned to face his fellow ranger. “The horsemen know his whereabouts.”

Where did you learn this?” inquired Aragorn.

They crossed paths with Amras and Eldin not two days ago, a mile off the Greenway.”

Aragorn grew nervous. “Are they here? I would speak with them,” he said, doubt already glinting in his voice.

After a short pause, Hador shook his head sadly. “Amras was killed.”

Aragorn stood stock still, then bowed his head in grief. Amras was one of his dear friends. “And what of Eldin?“he asked, struggling to regain his voice.

I brought Eldin here, unbeknownst to the landlord. I laid him upstairs. He was badly wounded,” Hador spoke quietly.

Take me to him,” commanded Aragorn firmly. Hador nodded and led the way back into the inn. As Aragorn passed the door to the hobbit’s room, he noticed that it was cracked open slightly. As he made to close it, he saw Frodo’s eyes upon him, surveying him worriedly from his place at the doorframe. Aragorn knelt down before the hobbit. “Stay here,” he instructed gently, and he shut the door.

No one took any notice of the two rangers passing hurriedly through the common room and ascending the stairs. Hador led Aragorn to a darkened end of the upstairs corridor. The door at the unlit end of the hallway bore a tarnished brass number thirteen, hanging crookedly on its rusty nails.

I figured he’d be safe here,” said Hador quietly. “None of Barliman’s customers like to stay here. Superstitious fools,” he scoffed.

Aragorn caught Hador’s hand as the man reached out to turn the brass knob. “I’ll tend to him,” he began, his voice low. “But I must ask you to remain with the hobbits.”

I had planned to see to that,” Hador nodded. “The fifth room?”

Yes. I shall be back as soon as is possible,” Aragorn promised. “And Hador,“he said as he opened the door to the room. “Thank you.”

Hador glanced inside briefly. Aragorn could hear a slight strain in his voice when he spoke. “Would that I had been able to do more for Amras,” he whispered. “I am glad of your help. I would have been able to do no more for Eldin. He, too, I may have lost.”

Though Aragorn said nothing in response, he clapped his friend lightly on the shoulder, conveying that Amras’s passing had been no fault of Hador’s. He watched Hador turn and retreat until he was entirely lost to the light of the single candle in Eldin’s room. He shut and bolted the door behind him, and approached the small bed in the corner, keeping the fall of his soft leather boots on the wood floor silent. The sight of Eldin’s face was sombre, for the young ranger seemed pale and without life. Aragorn could not so much as detect the rise and fall of his chest until he had seated himself on the edge of the bed. Eldin opened his eyes slightly and turned his head to look at Aragorn. Aragorn laid his hand gently on Eldin’s cheek, careful not to flinch at how chilled the younger man’s skin was.

He forced himself to smile, hoping to give some strength to Eldin. “Remember me?” he asked jokingly.

As a boy remembers his father. Yes, Aragorn, I know you.” His voice was weak.

Aragorn drew back the covers to expose Eldin’s upper-half. An ugly gash spanned from one side of his rib cage to the other, and around it, the skin was dark, as if bruised. A cloth, soaked in warm water was laid across it. Aragorn removed it. “Hador did well not to staunch the blood flow from the wound,” he commented. “It is poisoned with something deadly.”

He rose and surveyed a small pot that hung over the dying fire. The water in it was near boiling. He reached into a small pouch on his belt and pulled forth six withering leaves of athelas. “Alas, this is near all that is left of my store,” he said to himself as he crushed the leaves and dropped them into the water. “I pray it will be enough.” He took a clean cloth from a table nearby which he soaked in the water and placed along Eldon’s wound in replacement of the other. Eldin cried out weakly in agony, clenching his teeth as the steaming water made contact with his abused flesh. Aragorn did what he could to soothe him.

Once he had looked over the rest of Eldin’s body and cleaned the minor hurts upon him, he covered the ranger’s limp form once again and tucked the blanket around his shoulders. Eldin’s eyes were shut as if he was slumbering peacefully, so Aragorn was mildly startled when he spoke.

My bag is on the table. Pray, give it me.”

Aragorn handed him the worn haversack, and Eldin took from the pouch a piece of folded paper. He laid it in Aragorn’s open hand. “It chanced that I was in Imladris not yet a month ago. The Lady bade me bring you this...” he stopped, trying to regain his breath.

Though Aragorn’s heart jumped excitedly at these words, he remembered Eldin’s condition. “Speak no more,” he said softly. “Rest, if you are able. I shall stay at your side for a while longer.” He slipped the note into his shirt. He brushed his palm over Eldin’s eyelids, shutting them gently. He slid his hand down to caress the cold cheek, until he was sleeping, and Aragorn could continue his work without causing Eldin so much pain. He removed the cloth from his wound and laid his warm hands upon Eldin’s mangled skin. He focused every ounce of his energy on helping him to heal, on driving the consuming darkness from the body of his dear friend. A low groan escaped Eldin, as he felt a strange heat enter him and spread throughout, burning like wildfire even as it drove away the cold of the Morgul blade that had pierced him so deeply. After several minutes, Eldin’s breathing become easier as he relaxed into a shallow sleep.

Aragorn pulled his hands away from Eldin, a light sheen of sweat upon his brow. He let himself fall onto the mattress at Eldin’s side, for he was so drained from giving his energy to another body that he could not yet support his own weight. He found that Eldin’s eyes were open once again, yet now they stared piercingly at him, clear and sharp once again, free of the Shadow. A tear shone in the corner of one.

Why do you weep?” asked Aragorn, forcing the words out.

Amras,” whispered Eldin. “I could not save him.”

With some difficulty, Aragorn moved closer to Eldin to offer him a comforting embrace. He made to lay a kiss on the other’s forehead, but Eldin jerked his chin upward and met Aragorn’s lips with his own, crushing them together. Aragorn was only slightly surprised by this intimate act, for he knew what Eldin was doing. He parted his lips willingly to welcome Eldin’s tongue. Aragorn felt some of the heat passed back into his weakened body, and, after a moment, felt that he could stand again. With a last endearing bite to Aragorn bottom lip, Eldin broke the kiss. “You looked like you needed that,” he stated, drying his eyes.

I think I may have,” Aragorn said as he rose, finding his legs working quite well. “I’ll send Hador back up in a moment. Try to sleep.” Aragorn shut the door gently behind him, and made his way back down to room five.

He found Hador standing outside the partially open door, watching the Hobbits within. “They do not know of my presence,” said Hador quietly. “I guess that yet another dirty ranger would frighten them even more than you already have.”

Aragorn nodded. “That is best. You should go back to Eldin,” he instructed. Hador looked questioningly at him, wanting news of his friend’s condition. “He shall be fine,” Aragorn smiled. “But continue to bathe the wound in heated water, with athelas, if you have it.”

Hador went quickly back toward the common room, and Aragorn slipped soundlessly in with the hobbits. They were all in bed, but Frodo raised his head from his pillow. “Strider!” he exclaimed softly. “I didn’t know where you’d gone - I - well, I was worried.”

Strider was very nearly touched by this remark. He smiled as he pulled a chair from the corner and set it down by the window. “You should not waste time worrying for me.”

Frodo laid down again on his pallet, and apparently fell asleep. Strider pulled the letter from his shirt, and slowly, carefully, untied the green silk ribbon with which it was bound. Upon it was neat Elvish script, unmistakeably Arwen’s hand. His hands shook with delight as he read it.

Estel,

Amras and Eldin have informed me that you are travelling towards Imladris. I look forward to being with you again, if only for a short while. I received your message from last August, and I believe that the day’s heat has taken strange effect on you. I have never known a more impudent man than you, Estel. No, I will not wait for you in my bedchamber, and, if I did, it would not be without a sufficient amount of clothing, my dear. Furthermore, do not so much as expect me to kiss you until you have bathed.

Glorfindel has set out to find you and your charges. We have learned that Nazgul follow you closely. Please, my love, tread carefully, and come home safely. Your path is dangerous. I love you.

Arwen

As Aragorn reread this last sentence for the thousandth time, his heart gave a wild beat. He folded the letter again, and held it gently in his hands, raising his eyes to the star-bound night sky, he whispered, “Amin melleth lle, Arwen.” A sudden thought struck him, and he turned, looking towards Frodo. “And you, as well. Goodnight...little hobbit.”

 
 
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Somatophylakes
21 December 2004 @ 03:30 pm

Frodo listened to his companions settle into their beds, even as he did so himself. Gandalf's letter was still clutched protectively in his fist, and he held it close to reassure himself of many confusing things. The pallet beneath him was warm and yielding, and as welcoming of sleep as he could hope for; but no rest would come to the troubled hobbit. His eyes were lightly shut and he kept his breathing slow and soft, so to appear to be asleep. He did not want anyone bothered, for the day had been long and tiresome, and Merry and Pippin and Sam had been hoping for a good night's rest. Even Strider, who sat at the window, smoking his pipe, seemed to have relaxed a little.

That was not the first time that night Frodo had found his thoughts dwelling on Strider. Of course, he did realise that it would only be sensible not to put his full trust in him, having shared but one discussion with the arcane Ranger, during which his oddities had roused suspicions in the others. Nevertheless, he could not deny that he felt oddly safe in Strider's presence. And the letter...Gandalf knew of an "Aragorn" who often called himself by the name of "Strider", and though Sam's arguments against this ranger were not without reason, Frodo could not find them supported by any aspect of the man himself that was not pure illusion.

His back was turned toward the one in question, and he knew he was keeping watch out the dark-paned window at the opposite wall, so Frodo allowed himself to stop feigning sleep. He looked around the rustic room, missing Barliman's offered quarters, which the man had said would be suited to hobbit-folk. He had not hoped for convenience, though, he reminded himself. What he had hoped for, he supposed, was a reminder of home, albeit he would not have voiced this thought to any of his companions. He was beginning to feel quite small and very lonely in this place with all its large, looming abandoned buildings and tall men. That feeling came even with all the long walks on which his uncle had taken him in his youth (a subject still often broached in Hobbiton). He could only imagine how the others, Sam especially, were feeling about being so far from home.

Growing suddenly nervous, he found himself looking for something on which to focus in hopes that it would help him sleep, as it had when he was young. He could see nothing, though, for the fire was kept low, and the only light was that of the bright embers, which cast the room in a glowing, unsettling red. An immense disquiet lay heavy upon Frodo, and he found that he no longer wanted to close his eyes, though he was aware of his need for sleep. It felt almost as if a childhood fear were nagging at him, in an unfamiliar place, with a stranger whom he could only trust by his own untested instincts. Worst yet was that something that he could not name was looking for him, hunting him...something dark that he did not understand. He could feel its presence. Faint it was, yet haunting, like a nightmare that lingers for days. It was growing closer, stronger by the minute. His eyes darted once more across the room, and he imagined that the shadows moved. Could they feel him as well?

Frodo hesitated in his thoughts, afraid even to let the question cross his mind, but it came unbidden. Could they feel the Ring?

A chill took Frodo's body, like a sudden draft of cold air, the source of which could not be found. He held the letter in his hand tighter wrinkling the paper. He decided that he must calm himself, if he were to have any sensible thought. He reminded himself that there was no immediate danger, and found that having Strider nearby was very comforting. He averted his eyes from the dimness at one side of the room, and opted to watch the embers die out in the hearth.

"Can you not sleep, Frodo?"

Frodo jumped at the sound of Strider's soft whisper, startled out of a troubled reverie. He sat up a little, and turning to face him, shook his head.

"Come over here," Strider beckoned, keeping his voice low.

Frodo obeyed, and wrapped his blanket about his shoulders, slipping Gandalf's missive into the pocket of his breeches as he did. He sat down at the Ranger's feet. They were silent for a few moments, and Frodo found himself glancing over the tall man's body, fascinated by his significantly different build. He would have thought that he was quite unobtrusive, but Strider was watching every movement of his eyes.

"My feet must seem fair small to one of your folk," Strider said with a little laugh.

Although he was startled, Frodo laughed as well. Hearing such a stern man jest helped to lighten his spirits, somewhat. "We hobbits wonder how you Men keep your balance."

"Many of us don't, much of the time," smiled Strider.

As Frodo's eyes adjusted to the shadows of the corner they sat in, he began to notice a slight redness rimming Strider's eyes. Though he was curious, he didn't know if it would be polite to inquire. "Strider, what's wrong?" he blurted out without thinking. He cursed inwardly, and tried to further explain, stammering under the scrutinising

At that moment, Pippin entered, having left briefly to the adjacent room to relieve himself. Strider's eyes had quickly fallen upon the door as it opened, and Frodo jumped with fright.

Pippin sighed as he turned and slid the old, rusted deadbolt into place. "I don't trust that lock to hold...should something...well, happen."

Strider turned back to the window. "No lock would hold should our enemy wish to pass it."

Pippin shivered visibly. "Don't say such things, please!" He whispered pleadingly. "I'm frightened enough by all this." He stepped cautiously over Sam and laid down, settling hastily into his blanket.

"Forgive me," said Strider gently. "Dark speech is not always suited for dark times." Pippin nodded thankfully at this and shut his eyes.

Frodo stared blankly into the darkness, his brow creased in a disturbed manner. Pippin hardly heard Frodo speaking to him; the hobbit's voice was so quiet. "He's right."

Strider looked at him solicitously, regretting having scared them, but said nothing. Pippin's breaths were soon heard to become deeper with sleep. "I am sorry. I'm just worried, and I show it badly."

"Tell me truthfully, Strider, do you know that they will find us?" Frodo inquired, steadying his voice.

Strider shook his head, trying to find a way to explain his thoughts. It was something he'd never been apt at, even as a child. When the emotions of other young ones were so simple, his had been complex, and in all his years, he still could never place the words he sought. These days, he often opted to relate things by means of logic. "They can feel the call of the One, and it leads them to this place. I have learned from my own friends that they are near at hand. If they do miss us, which is hardly likely, then tonight's happenings have posed another threat. Bree is a veritable nexus for strange travellers and an extremely talkative peerage, and, as you can see, that is a dangerous mixture of kinds."

"You mean Bill Ferny and his southerner," said Frodo.

"Yes, and there are others more dangerous, that Ferny would most certainly help if the right price were offered," Strider spat contemptuously. "Ferny's naught but a whore."

"I'm afraid," said Frodo, "that I may have made more danger for myself that I can handle."

"I don't encourage you to do anything of the sort again, of course, but I beg you not to give anymore worry to the matter. I'm not the only ranger here, you know," Strider disclosed trustingly.

"There are more rangers?" said Frodo, seeming surprised. "Here?"

"Yes," Strider nodded. "Dear friends of mine."

Though Frodo didn't notice, Strider smiled broadly as he said this. Frodo's mind drifted back to his own friends, and the Shire, and he succumbed to a terrible longing. Strider paused for a moment, thinking. "I don't suppose you'd mind telling me how old you are?" he inquired abruptly.

Frodo shook off the deep nostalgia of his thoughts of his own bed and safe hobbit hole. To him, it seemed odd that Strider asked this question, for many hobbits in the Shire had asked the very same. Strider was the last place he had expected to find a reminder of his beloved home, however trivial. "Fifty," he said softly.

Strider gave him a puzzled expression, though there were darker thoughts in his mind that he did not let show on his face, for Gandalf had told him how long Frodo had been in possession of the Ring, and he knew full well the effect it had had on Bilbo and Gollum "You do not look it at all."

"And you?" said Frodo. He was subconsciously expecting Strider to be anywhere from thirty to forty years old, but he noted that the man acted much wiser, more akin to Gandalf.

"Eighty-seven," said Strider, after a moment, his voice wistful. "And I shall not die of my age or any sickness for many years to come."

"You don't look it, I assure you," Frodo whispered, astonished. The verse Gandalf had mentioned came to mind, and suddenly Frodo thought that Strider was much more than he claimed or seemed to be. He looked at the Man, as if now he could see more of him. This was not Strider the Ranger, or anyone deserving of such names as Longshanks or Stick-at-Naught, but someone greater, with a strange sort of power emanating from his very being. This was Aragorn.

Pale grey daylight flooded his vision once again as a sudden chill pulled Frodo from his thoughts. He sighed, shivering with cold as the soggy ground gave way to thin mud beneath his feet for the umpteenth time. It felt as if he was a hundred miles out of Bree, when, in fact, the small party had been travelling like snails for less than a day. Depression had begun to overtake his consciousness, as he and Sam, Pippin, and Merry followed Strider over the dreary northern regions.

They had reached Midgewater Marshes by noon. The stagnant, cold pools made the going even slower for the small hobbits. They missed the damp woodland they had so recently left behind, for there, the cold wind and rain found little leeway, and the smell was of loam and wood and not at all intolerable. Now, breezes constantly brought with them the foul smell of marsh water from nearby, and if one stood in one place for too long, one would eventually sink into an inch of freezing water. What must have been hours before, Merry and Pippin had tried to strike up a conversation, but had failed after a particularly annoying swarm of bugs had descended upon them. After that, the companions fell silent, and a dark, cheerless mood lay over the travellers once again. Strider was the only one whose demeanour had not changed, but that was not surprising; he was as quiet and moody as ever he had been, but his thoughts were elsewhere.

Frodo sensed that Strider was growing impatient with the delay they were causing. His expression, however, remained neutral each time he stopped to wait for them to catch up with him, for he knew the pace he had set for them was brisk.

It must have been nearing three o'clock by then, but the sky was as grey-cast and cloudy as it had been that morning, giving the five companions the feeling that hours were stretched far over there limits. Some of them were beginning to question Strider's skills. Sam, especially, seemed particularly convinced that the Man was fallible in the matters of travel in the wilderness, "Ranger or no". Frodo was the only one present who was wholly discouraged from his own suspicions, as he watched the sureness with which Strider stepped, never seeming to falter, as if he could still see his own footprints from passed times he'd travelled this marshland. His attention was often held over long periods by simply watching him. However, this did not keep the march from being tedious.

"Mr. Frodo," said Sam quietly. "Forgive me if it seems I'm prying, but I would swear that I heard you talking with Mr. Strider last night, for quite some time, too."

Frodo nodded. "I was."

Sam looked uncomfortable. "He didn't say anything that seemed, well, suspicious, did he?"

"No, quite the contrary, Sam," Frodo replied. "Why is it you don't trust him? He's done nothing to prove he's not here to help."

Sam eyed Strider suspiciously for a moment, considering him. "I don't mean to be harsh, but I believe he'll have my full trust when we're all safe in Rivendell."

Frodo smiled slightly. "I suppose that's practical."

Aragorn had retreated into his own thoughts, as he often did to make monotonous journeys bearable. Unease nagged at him. There was some evil afoot that chilled him in an oddly familiar way. The feeling was disturbing to him, not yet sickening, but drawing nigh upon it. As the minutes passed, he felt his suspicions confirmed.

The Nine were somewhere near at hand. Since the incidence of the previous night his expression had become grave with worry on the matter. They knew not yet where the Ring was, but he guessed they knew exactly where it was going. He could see that Frodo felt their presence as well, for the hobbit kept glancing over his shoulder, jumping if someone spoke to him, and he shivered, as if chilled. Strider then became more wary, his gaze dodging stealthily in every shadow, searching for any sign of the Enemy.

In such a way the day passed, until night swept over the land with strange swiftness, bringing with it a cold wind to replace the mist of rain that had hung in the air that day.

Strider made camp quickly on the nearest patch of dry turf. Wearily, the hobbits unpacked their gear, and ate a small portion of the food Barliman had sent with them, each thanking him profusely under his breath. Frodo ate nothing, and only sipped a bit of water from his skin, feeling too tired to stay awake. He broke off from the rest of the group. Sam's eyes followed him nervously for a while, but then the worrisome hobbit figured that his master would not be leaving camp tonight. One by one, the other three hobbits spread their pallets on the ground, and were soon asleep.

Frodo sat down next to Strider, who was again taking first watch. The man's features were kept phlegmatic, leaving Frodo to wonder whether he minded having company.

"Aren't you going to eat anything?" he inquired. He remembered that Strider had taken no breakfast in Bree that morning.

"Aren't you?" said the man.

Frodo shook his head. "No, I'm not hungry."

"You should eat. I can wait."

Frodo was puzzled. "Wait how long?"

Strider sighed heavily. "Until we reach Rivendell."

Frodo wondered at that for a few minutes. His eyelids were growing too heavy to uphold.

Strider smiled fondly as the little hobbit at his side fell asleep. Frodo's head lolled over to rest on his shoulder. Tentatively, Strider lifted his arm and put it about the hobbit, who sighed comfortably. Whether it was awake or not, Strider was glad of some company.

"They are coming for him, Aragorn."

Hador's words echoed. Amras stood over Eldin's dead body, weeping little trails of blood that fell onto the corpse. Amras looked up at Aragorn with an unearthly suddenness.

"He will not be your last failure."

Frodo's scream was all he could hear. Then whispers, and he could no longer separate them from the scream. Then it came back, louder now, and as a Wraith cries for the Ring.

"They are coming for him."

Strider's eyes snapped open. His body felt numb from fear. He and Frodo had fallen asleep sitting upright, and the little hobbit still rested peacefully upon his shoulder. Hand shaking in the aftermath of his dream, he stroked Frodo's cheek absently, and found it chilled. He picked him up and laid him back on his pallet, covering him with the blankets already folded at the foot of the bedroll, and then with his own cloak. Wiping cold sweat from his brow, he leant down gently kissed Frodo's lips. Frodo's breath lingered for a moment upon Strider's mouth, and the man sighed, savouring it. Reaching under the cover, he took hold of Frodo's small hand and enclosed it in his own. "I'll not let them take you."

Frodo was lying on his bedroll gazing at the vast expanse of the starless wintry sky, and he was mesmerised by the way the snow was beginning to fall. For all this he was somehow not cold, though he was aware that under his blanket he wore nothing. He raised his head a little and found three sleeping hobbits at his side. He and Strider were now the only ones awake, he realised, and then felt a tightness growing in his stomach. He sat up, letting the cover slide from his bare chest, and saw that the man was approaching. He stopped for a moment and they held one another's gaze for what seemed like an eternity to Frodo. All the while, Frodo felt that tightness growing to a need that he knew he could not ignore for much longer. Finally, Strider knelt down at his side, and they were kissing, bruising one another's lips in mad passion. Though he was unsure of how it had happened, a sudden burst of bodily pleasure sent Frodo over the edge, and he came hard...

Becoming unaware of the fading dream, Frodo's mind shifted back into a state of fear, and he fell from Strider's arms into stifling darkness.

During some dark hour of the night, Frodo awoke suddenly, unsettled by an illusive nightmare. A sheen of sweat covered his brow and he was trembling, but he did not remember of what he had been dreaming. However, as he shifted, he realised there was a pleasantly warm tingle between his legs, and a not entirely pleasant stickiness. The nature of his dream became apparent, and he became very nervous at the thought that someone might have heard him. Strider was the only one awake, and his back was turned toward Frodo. A wreath of silver, wispy smoke hung over the man's head. Frodo saw it grow slightly as Strider blew another thin stream of pipe-smoke from his lips. The posture of his dark silhouette showed that he was sitting up straight and alert, undaunted by the cold, though his cloak was missing...

Frodo looked down. Strider's heavy travelling cloak covered him, having been tucked gently beneath him. The smell of pipe-weed was evident on it, reminding Frodo of Gandalf and Bilbo. Frodo smiled gratefully and snuggled deeper into its folds. Strider must have carried him to his bedroll, he realised.

Faintly, he heard a voice, singing ever so softly in Elvish, and the beauty of it struck him. Only after a few more moments did he realise that it was Strider who was singing. Frodo knew enough Elvish to make out some of the words. "Who is she?" he asked softly, in awe of the man's haunting voice. "This woman you sing of."

Strider turned around suddenly, surprised. He thought for a short moment, and then replied. "Tis the Lay of Luthien...the Elf maiden who gave her love to Beren- a mortal Man," he said slowly.

Frodo could see that Strider was deep in thought, perhaps remembering something. Frodo felt that now that he could almost perceive the age of the man before him.

The familiar smell of pipe-weed was relaxing and sweet, and Frodo inhaled deeply, and then sighed. He looked down, to the figure asleep at his side. Sam's face was as peaceful as Frodo had ever seen, and there was a slight smile upon it. A chill wind blew past, but he pulled his blanket close, and it seemed that it offered more warmth than usual. Though all evil in the world pursued him, he was not afraid now.

He laid down upon his pallet again and nestled into his cover. With the strange image of Strider the Ranger, surrounded by a mist of ambrosial pipe-smoke, he drifted back into sleep.

 
 
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